Issues

Desire

My desire to kiss her finally becomes too much to resist. I lean in and close the space between us. I kiss her like I've never kissed anyone in my life. Our lips collide and move in perfect synchrony. With every passing second, I feel each wound in my heart slowly beginning to heal. I push her up against the door and cup my hand around the nape of her neck. I feel her melting under my touch as she pulls me even closer at the waist. The kiss is full of passion and so much meaning.

We finally break the kiss to catch our breath. When I pull away, I see Alison still has her eyes closed, just smiling to herself, as she whispers, "Wow".

Cupping her face in my hands I say, "I'm done with over thinking things. I just want you," right before I pull her in and kiss her again. Her lips are unbelievably soft and I simply can't get enough. Kissing Alison just feels right. This is the feeling I've been searching for all my life. Complete and utter passion and enchantment flows through my veins with every kiss, every look, and every touch. I can tell she feels the same way because she's kissing me back with the same level of desire and intensity. I need her just as much as she needs me. No more getting in our own way. We're better together then we ever were apart.

Pulling away, Alison looks at me and says in a sexy voice, "I want you too". Now giggling, she continues, "And by the way, that was hands down the best kiss of my life".

Smiling, I kiss her on the forehead and say, "Good. You better get used to it. I'm not going anywhere".

"Listen, it's late. Why don't you stay for the night? You can sleep in my bed with me" I say with a convincing smile.

She raises her eyebrow at me and smirks.

"Oh get your mind out of the gutter!" I say laughing. "Just sleeping. I promise. I have some extra oversized shirts and sweatpants if you want to change into that. That's what I usually wear to bed anyways".

She pauses for a moment and replies, "Sounds amazing. Thank you. Honestly, I'm so exhausted from work. I feel like I could fall asleep right now".

We both change into comfy clothes and crawl into bed. Alison instantly curls up next to me and lays her head on my chest while sprawling her arm across my stomach. I can feel my heart beating really fast as she does this.

"I can hear your heart beating really fast" she says suddenly.

"Oh yea, sorry about that" I say laughing.

"Don't be. I like that I do that to you" she says as she lifts her head up for another kiss.

I obviously oblige and softly kiss her again. "Goodnight Ali" I say as she rests her head on my chest again.

Lifting her head up again, she looks at me, smiles, and says, "That's the first time you've called me that".

"Oh. Sorry. Do you prefer I stick with Alison?" I say nervously.

Resting her head on my chest again, she says, "No. I don't mind at all. I like it when you call me Ali. Goodnight Em."

I kiss the top of her head and close my eyes to go to sleep. That's the first time she's called me Em. I've gotta say that I love the way it sounds when she says it.

Soon, sleep befalls us as we hold each other under the covers.

"No! No! Stay with me! You're not gonna die on me! Help is coming!" I'm right back in the thick of things. Bullets flying around me, soldiers getting shot, you name it. And there she is, in my arms, bleeding out, and I know there's nothing I can do about it. I'm shouting these things even though I know I'm having another nightmare. But I can't wake myself up from it.

Then I feel gentle hands on my face and someone saying, "Emily, wake up. It's okay, wake up".

My eyes fling open and I'm drenched in sweat. My heart is practically beating out of my chest, and I'm struggling to catch my breath. Disoriented, I look around trying to get my bearings then I see her, sitting up in bed next to me, gently brushing my hair out of my face, and whispering, "Shhh.. it's okay. It's me, Ali. You were having a nightmare. Em, look at me. It's okay".

Breathing in and out heavily, I begin to cry. "I'm sorry Ali. I'm sorry you have to see me like this".

Smiling down at me, Ali takes my hands and says, "Don't apologize. I'm glad I was here". Guiding me to lay my head in her chest, she continues, "Now come on, it's your turn to snuggle".

I happily snuggle up under her neck as I continue to try and compose myself. I take a deep breath in and I realize that she smells like lavender. My absolute favorite. Of course my new favorite person smells amazing too. Plus she's an amazing kisser and she's incredibly soothing. She's exactly what I need right now in my vulnerable moment.

"Thank you for being so gentle and so kind with me" I say as I wrap my arm over her stomach.

Slowly running her fingers through my hair, she kisses me on the top of my head, and replies, "Of course. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else. Now try and get some sleep".