Sparrows

Chapter 12

Marine’s POV

“Hey get out of my room! I told Louis specific-“ I chocked on my words when I see the back of a familiar body tangled in between another girl, him in between her thighs, on my bed. My fucking bed.

 He didn’t move, he laid there frozen for a few seconds until the girl came up from under him, pushing him off, forcing him to reveal his face to me. He looked to me for understanding, for forgiveness, but I looked away, trying to stay confident and unaffected. I sickly wanted to hurt him like he did to me.

I knew it, this is how it has been with Harry, how I expected it to be. He one day acts totally kind and interested in me then he does something to contradict that the next minute, I can’t spend my energy going back and forth with someone like that, it’s unhealthy, I can’t let a man consume me like that, it will make me weak and vulnerable. All Harry is going to do is hurt me,

The girl he was doing ‘stuff with’ was still laying on the bed, her giggling and giving me a judgmental look, like a ‘who is this girl, she is such a loser’ look, if you know what that looks like. All I wanted to do was push her off my bed and scream at her to get out of my house. Harry rushed up from the bed, him just in shock, doing the neck-rubbing thing he always does and brushing his fingers through his hair, tugging on his hair from frustration.

“Marine it’s not what it lo-“ he pleaded

“Get out.” Is all I am able to say, doing everything I can to not to look into Harry’s eyes, instead just staring at a bookshelf to the left of me.

“Marine just let me-“

“GET OUT.” I say, a little louder now.

“Marine, I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings, she came on to me I was just here  to-”

“You really think this is about, like, us? No I don’t care, I do care that no one was aloud to be in my room and you came into my room anyway and where probably about to have sex on my bed, so just get the fuck out, you too.” I hiss, pointing at the skank standing by Harry, her starting to laugh, breaking the awkward silence. I stared directly at her, my heart pounding, my throat dry, she made me seem so stupid and foolish, the fact that she was laughing at me made me want to hide away and just cry, but I just walked by her to my desk and picked up my journal.

“Fine,” I say, my journal in my hand walking towards the door, “ I’ll leave. Finish what you guys where doing, actually make yourselves comfortable, I will just disinfect my bed later.” I exhale, then I inhale, and then I storm out the door, slamming it behind my back and speed walk out the hall and down the stairs.

On our staircase I find my slutty brother nose close with a girl wrapped around his body, him cornering her on the wall, she wanted to fuck him, I could see it in her eyes but I couldn’t care less because I just needed to get out of this damn house and

“Marine? What are you doing here?” Louis spots me, now detaching himself from the girl.

I am pissed off, I am hurt, I am confused I can’t do this right now and this wouldn’t have happened if Louis didn’t tell everyone not to go into my fucking room. I lose it,

“LOUIS, I SAID NO ONE IN MY ROOM, I ASKED ONE SIMPLE THING OF YOU AND YOU CAN’T EVEN DO THAT?” I’m screaming, Louis is in shock, his girl is very confused.

“Marine, calm down, I didn’t mean to-“

“Let me finish Louis” I sigh and release a big exhale, my hands in fists in the air. “You always find a way to fuck everything up, I hate when you come, you ruin everything for me, just fucking leave me alone for once, I don’t ask for anything, ever, and I’m asking this, but I am too busy being the families laughing stock for any of you to notice.”

I stand there for a few seconds, just to catch my breathe, but Louis doesn’t say anything, and for the first time in a long time, it seemed that Louis was actually hurt by something I told him, and he seemed sorry for something he did.

I walked away though, down the stairs really fast and slammed the apartment door behind me, again. And in that moment, the anger and pain was too much for me to even feel anything too, so I felt nothing but the wind blowing my hair, and the sound of the crickets in the bushes.

I parked my bike outside of Electra’s house and she opened the door for me. She knew something was wrong with me so I told her that I got in a fight with Louis. She then brought me candy bars and we ate them to make me feel better then we continued Angus, thongs, and perfect snogging and I felt a little better. We fell asleep on the couch before we could finish the movie. It’s good to have Electra to keep me grounded.

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Short one I know I am sorry! BUTTT since it is valentines day, im giving you guys a little treat and DOUBLE UPDATING! so what are you waiting for, the next chapter is here :)