Ocean of Thoughts

To Baby

Hello baby girl or boy. This is your mommy here. I hope you love me. I know I'll love you.

We will have three little dogs. Named, Calvin, Klein, and Raigen. I know they'll love you. I hope you'll love them.

I know that I may not be your biological mom. Or even close. But I hope I'm a little hope for the future. And if you don't want to call me mom. I'm okay with that too. Whatever makes you happy.

I know you'll probably be 6 when I adopt you. So you'll probably know that I'm not your mom. And if I adopt you younger, I'm sure you'll realize we don't look the same.

Your beautiful though. Or handsome.

I made this. Because I'm painting my future. And I hope I helped paint yours too.

Maybe this letter won't exist when your old enough to understand it. But. Just know.

Guys are trouble. Bad. No good.

Girls are clingy. Whiney. Stupid.

I hope you listen to me.
Not to good with patience. Maybe I'll be better then.

I don't know if you'll have a dad. But I know that even if not. We'll have fun.

You see I struggle with depression and anxiety.

I hope you don't. Or if you do I hope you talk to me about it.

I know you'll be thankful. And grateful. And respectful. And hopefully happy with me.

I hope that we are close.

Love,
Your Mom.