Ocean of Thoughts

Are you tired of me yet?

Have you guys ever been depressed? Do you guys know what it feels like? Do you understand that you can't just wake up and be okay?

It really hard to get out of. And I don't think you guys are understanding it. At all.

Depression: Everything is going right, but you're still unhappy.

That is the definition.

It's a sickness. A disease. Like cancer. Sometimes you can make it. Sometimes you can't. People die from depression. They kill theirselves. Even where they had almost the picture perfect family. And picture perfect house. They were still unhappy.

Do you guys understand, that it can't happen in 24 hours or even 48? It take a long time to fight your way out. I need you guys to support me though this. I can't do it alone.

Please don't comment things like.

I thought it was over
I thought you were better

Or other things like that. I am getting better. But it takes time. I am determined to save myself and my bootiful Baby too. EveThePoet
I promised her to never cut my skin. So I won't. I promised no more suicide attempts. So I won't.
I will never break my promises to this bean. She's very special to me.