Whispers

Rant

I'm kind of done with chasing people. Giving them my everything, trying to be cute for them and caring for them and being there for them. Because now I just get hurt. I'm done waiting. If you want me, treat me like a princess. If you want me, tell me so. If you want me, come and get me. I'm tired of trying to catch you. Tell me how you feel. Want to talk to me. Don't fucking push me away. Don't close up on me. Don't leave me, no matter what. Don't leave me just because I've "changed" and you don't want to be friend with what I've become anymore. Wrap your arms around me and don't let go. Don't hold back either. Hold me close and hug me so I feel protected. Ask me how I am every day because then at least I know you care. Tell me how you feel, I don't care if it's random bursts of emotion because that's why I do and i love it. Don't ever tell me I talk too much, tell me that you love hearing my voice or getting texts from me or simply listening to my rants. Encourage me when I'm down, give me cute things because I love them. Give me my favorite candy when I'm down or when it's that time of the month. Remind I'm important every day, tel me you care, because without doing so I never know and I think that you don't. Actually answer all my texts and don't make me wait all day for you to respond. What if I need you. What if I'm depressed. What if I hate myself. I'm asking this because this is what I would give to you, just remember that. I give to people what I want them to give to me. Treat people the way you want to be treated. Stop constantly getting mad or annoyed because when you do I feel like it's all my fault so I apologize or just shut my mouth because i feel like you wouldn't want to talk to me. I feel like you hate me and you're mad or annoyed with me so you don't want to talk to me. Please I'm sorry so please forgive me. Just give me your all...because that's what I try to give to you.

3/27/17

I need to be reminded and constantly told how you feel about me because if you don't I'm left to my own thoughts and I don't like myself much and that takes over so I fear that everyone including my closest friends find me annoying sometimes and I'm just not worth anyone's time.

^^3/28/17^^