Whispers

Disappointment

It makes me feel bad 
To push you away
But what else am I to do?

I'm your daughter,

I'm your subject (you loyal, royal subject)
I'm your disappointment

To mom:

I know you love me
I know you care

I know you miss me
But you're only somewhat there

You try your best
I know, you do
So I don't want to bother you

To P:
You say you love me
But how do you show it?
Rare treats, small favors
But I don't get it

"I'm above you, no matter what"
You use it as an axcuse
You put us to work
Sometimes I hate to hate you
But I'm sorry, I just can't
You morals contradict mine
You're a lot of things that annoy me

Shut me down
Laugh in my face

Crush my dreams
Fine
But don't say you're perfect

Don't say your flawless
Oh honey, you have no idea

You hurt me, you did

But it's not like I can talk to you about it

No matter if how much you encourage me to
Because what do you do?

You shut me down
Laugh in my face
Crush my dreams 
I'll admit

Sometimes you care
You try to change
But...I don't know
Maybe for the less important things
The ones that matter less to me

So I've stopped trying

I'm sorry but I have
It hurts me but I have
Maybe you didn't mean to but you have