Sympathy For Him (Victuuri)

Chapter 19

Yuri's Pov

I woke up and saw Viktor wasn't with me. He must be in the kitchen making something. I slowly get out of the warm blankets and off the bed. I make my way to the kitchen and start smelling something sweet. It might be pancakes. Fuuuck, I need to tell him about it. How am I supposed to tell him I am not a human being? That isn't your everyday conversation!

"Hi Yuri! "

" Hey. "

" Do you want pancakes? "

" No, I'm not hungry. "

" Alright. "

I walk back into the room and sit on the bed. Viktor soon joins me with a plate of pancakes. I take a deep breath and open my mouth. No words form, they're stuck in my throat.

" What is it, Yuri? "

" Umm... "

" It's fine if you don't want to tell me. "

" Well, I'm a vampire and I have been for all my life. I really like the taste and smell of blood. My favorite kind is your blood, it tastes like cherry Pepsi. I've also been waking up at night and drink blood, so have my parents. "

" Um... Oh... Kay. "

" Please tell me you accept me, please. I'm sorry I didn't tell you this earlier. I just wanted to have someone love me for who I actually am besides my parents and Yuko. "

" Let me have time to think about it ok. "

" Alright. "

I knew it, he doesn't love. Why did I even tell him? It probably ruined this. Wow I'm such a great help in this marriage. It's still on out honey moon too. Wow, ok. I now know why no likes me. I mess up everything.

" Yuri, I'm taking a walk outside! I'll be back in about 1 or 2 hours. "

" Mkay. "

Why doesn't he want me to walk with him. We are married after all. Oh, that's right. I messed it all up by telling him that I'm a vampire.

I walk to the bathroom and pick up the razor again. I lock the door in case Viktor comes back earlier. I start making lines across my left wrist all the way up to my elbow and doing the same to my right wrist and elbow. As I'm doing this robotic movement over and over again, I think about all of the things I've messed up.

Our marriage, Viktor's mind, my family's life, my entire existence, and Yuko's family. Most of Yurio's life, though he ruined me. I start cutting deeper and deeper, but I feel nothing but emotional pain. I can't override it with physical pain. Why, why can't I be perfect. Be a perfect husband, perfect boyfriend, perfect friend, and most importantly a perfect son for my family. Killing for my family instead of them killing for me. Am I just a selfish bitch that can't do anything for myself? Haha, I guess I am. Why else would I only care about my well being without thinking of others.

I snap out of my thoughts when I hear our front door open. Viktor's calling me. Shit I still haven't cleaned up. My arms are dripping with blood and my clothes and legs are covered in blood as well. I hear a knock on the door.

"Yuri! What are you doing in there!? "

He sounds panicked.

"..."

" Yuri, please answer me! "

Do you actually care about me? Your voice sounds like it, but it still could be deceiving, just like Yurio.

" Um... I... Nothing! I had to go... Uh... go take a dump! "

" Can you come out after you're done? Please. I want to talk with you. "