The Darkness of Life

Alone

Why must this darkness stay that I so desperately want to disappear.. I hangs over me like a dark cloud and instead of rain drops falling, peices of ice come down instead.

I just want to feel welcomed and have the feeling that I'm wanted by someone. But every time I look for this, I come face to face with rejection and coldness. The ice falls and pierces my heart, my eyes and my soul. I ache, I cry, and long for companionship.

But in the end I will remain alone. Everyone I grew close to has either forsaken me or lost interest in me. Is it because I care too much that I ask if you are alright? Or is it because I enjoy your company and keep talking to you? Or is it just for the fact I deeply care and see that you are in pain and want to so desperately aid you in releasing it? But no matter what the reason may be, no one will ever understand how I care for others.

I am forever alone because I now choose to be. If no one seeks my companionship, why must I seek theirs? If no one takes interest, why must I? For all I know there is someone out there wanting the same as I, but for now I will remain in my shadows, behind my built up walls. Remaining forever alone.