I wish I could say that I was happy inside,
But all that was there has been left behind.
My true self is gone into a darkness I can't see,
And every day I wake up, I know it isn't me.
For happiness is a mask, that I put on in crowds,
But behind it is an emotion that not even I have found.
This emotion I feel is something different than depression,
It has the sadness I feel but not the hurting expression.
I'm back to the way I used be, this is not me,
I'm empty and unfree...
I hide this feeling from everyone I see,
I put on a façade so they think it is me.
But this feeling I have is now here to stay,
No amount of happiness can make it go away.
My soul is gone
It has fled from this body
Not a single person can see it,
No one, nobody...
I will live with this feeling every day of my life,
But don't think a person can make this all right.
I have accepted my fate that my soul is dead,
But I try to keep on a smile to keep a little bit of happiness in my head.
