The Darkness of Life

Away

No matter where I go, or where I am,

All I think is "stay away, stay away!"

Stay away from people no matter how close,

Because no matter how close, I'm still far away.

So why get close to people when I know they will leave?

Why hurt myself to the point that I cannot breathe?

As long as I'm far away they can't touch me,

No matter who they are they can't harm me.

I give my heart away but it always comes back torn.

No matter who it's given to, they will always make it worn.

Or is it me who cannot bear to watch people hold my heart in their hands?

For I fear they will drop it and it will forever break on their dark land.

I push myself away from people in this world.

So that I myself cannot be hurt by the hatred and sadness in their words.

My mind is this whirlpool of multiple feelings that my heart cannot feel nor can it speak.

My soul, however, knows these feelings, but it will not talk of them, not even at it's peak.

So for as long as I can and as long as I am willing.

I will try to feel happiness and love, until I can no longer keep this feeling.