It has been only a week since I left Grayson and I can easily say, I feel the same as I did a week ago. Broken. I'm staying at Y/B/F's apartment until I can get my own apartment, but for now, it's Netflix and junk food to hide my feeling. Of course I still miss Grayson, but what he did really hurt me. He is ashamed to have a relationship with me so what's the point of having a relationship.
I'm sitting on the couch watching bobs burgers (this show gives me life👌🏼👌🏼) and eating away my feeling with taco bell when I hear a knock on the door. Y/B\B is at work so I am forced to go get it. I stand up and check myself in the mirror to make sure I don't look awful before opening the door. On the other end, I see Ethan and one of the guys from the cafe that one day. That one awful day. "Um Ethan, what are you doing here?" I ask tugging in my sweater. "Well actually we need to talk to you." Ethan says referring to the blonde guy next to him." I open the door wider and shake my head inviting them in. Ethan walks in first followed by the blonde. "I'm Jake." I see the blonde guy putting his hand out towards me. "Y/N." I say with a shy smile. "I know. I've heard a lot about you." Jake says with a small smile. He walks the rest of the way in and stands next Ethan. "You guys can sit." I say sitting down myself. They both sit down and look at each other before turning to face me.
"Look Y/N I understand you're probably pissed at Grayson, but you have to understand how terrible he feels about the whole thing." Ethan says quickly. I look down trying to blink away tears. "I don't know..."come on Y/N he really feels like an a**hole right now and he's miserable. He hasn't left his room for days. And he won't let anyone in. What he did was stupid and I'm sorry but can you at least try to give him another chance he cares about you so much." Jake says pulling something out of his pocket. "Gray-uh he wrote this...for you he wanted us to give it to you. That's kinda why we came over here." Jake says in an almost whisper. I take the letter from his hand. It is folded with the words, "my only love ❤️" on it. Jake and Ethan stand up. I stand up as well ready to show them to the door but Ethan pulls me in for a hug. "We miss you Y/N/N. promise you'll read it." Ethan says looking into my eyes. I shake my head "I promise." I say I wave to Ethan and Jake as they walk out the door. I sigh and sit back down in the couch and rub my forehead. Do I want to read this letter? I don't know if I can forgive him.
After debating with myself for about 20 minutes. I grab the letter and start reading.
"Y/N, my love, my beautiful princess.
I've tried to write this letter a million time but I just can't seem to get it right. But here I go pouring my heart out to my one true love the one that I made cry the one that I hurt. And I hate myself for it. It's hurts me more than you can imagine to not be able to call you mine anymore. But I'm the only one to blame for that. And I'm sorry. I'm so sorry and I would walk to the ends of the earth to have you forgive me because you, Y/F/N, are my everything. The one I want to wake up with when I'm older. I want to call you Mrs. Dolan. I want to start a family with you. But I lost all of that a week ago when I made the worst mistake of my life and I have no explanation for it other than I was jealous. I was jealous of the way they were looking at you and I was afraid that you would be looking the same way back. But I realized as soon as the words left my mouth how stupid I was being. And I can't apologize enough for what I did that day, my lovely. And I haven't been the same since that day. So please, I'm begging you, come meet me at the Lincoln park tonight at 8:30 and let me explain myself. I understand if you don't want to be with me anymore because I wouldn't either. But I can't go on the rest of my life knowing that I hurt you. Please come.
Your baby boy,
Grayson
I finish the letter and notice my cheeks wet with tears. I have to go see him. I don't fully forgive him yet, but I know that he's sorry and I know that he loves me. And I love him and that's why I'm going to meet him tonight at the park. The very park where we had our first kiss. I check the time. 7:45 leaving me only a little while to get dressed and walk to the park. I hurt upstairs and shower and put on a pair of black ripped skinny jeans, a maroon tank top, and a cream cardigan. I pull on my white vans and walk out the door. It is now 8:20 leaving me only 10 minutes to get to the park.
I hurry as fast as I can to the park that is almost a mile away. When I get there, it is 8:45. Grayson probably already left thinking I wasn't going to come. I sprint the last block to the park and see...Grayson. Pacing back and forth with a bouquet of Daisy's in his hand. Grayson sits down on the bench and runs his hand through his hair. I can see his eyes getting red and puffy. Just as he stands up to leave. I step into the park so he can see me. He stands there just looking at me for a couple seconds before I break the silence. "Are you going to just stand there or are you going to kiss me?" I ask with a small smile. Grayson's face lights up as he drops the flowers he had in his hand and hurried over to me. He cups my face with his hands and looks into my eyes smiling while running his thumbs over my cheeks. "I missed you so much." He whispers before leaning in and kissing me. I kiss back immediately and smile into the kiss. After a while we pull apart and Grayson pulls me into him by the waist and starts kissing all over my face, murmuring sweet words making me giggle. "I love you so much princess." He says hugging me tightly still. "You have no idea how sorry I am." He says with his head in the crook of my neck. I pull his head away so I can see his face. "Gray it's okay I forgive you. Just make sure it doesn't happen again." I giggle and he smiles at me before placing a small kiss on my nose. "Oh!" He pulls away suddenly walking back to the Flowers he dropped. "These are for you." He says handing me the flowers. "Thank you I love them." I say smelling the flowers. "Lets go home?" He says reaching out for my hand. "Lets go home."
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Yup. 6 MORE DAYS OF SCHOOL LEFT. Um I don't really have anything to say so hears a bunch of random things I'm thinking about.
•you have no idea how many times I put my name when writing Y/N
•what do you think my name is?
•I have a black spot in my phone and it drives me crazy
• l really love the word spatula
• my brother is moving home and I'm REALLY EXCITED!!
Thanks for reading!!🤙🏼~C🌺
