"Why does it matter so much to you Grayson?" I ask frustrated as I walk into my house. My best friend Grayson following quickly behind me. "Because-Because if just does! Just tell me!" He says to my back as I get each of us a water bottle. I turn around and slide him a water bottle. I avoid eye contact knowing he'd give me puppy dog eyes, which would lead to me giving. "Y/N pleeeeeeeaaaaaaassssssseeeeee tell me. I'm your best friend I deserve to know." I let out a sigh. "Grayson it's not even that big of a deal." "Well if it's not a big deal then tell me." I roll my eyes. "Austin Smith" I mumble screwing the lid off of my water bottle. Out of the corner of my eye, I can see Grayson shake his head and his hands go to fists. "No." Grayson looks at me with a stern face. "You see this is exactly why I didn't want to tell you!" I roll my eyes and start waking upstairs. "Out of everyone on the team, in the school, in the WORLD, you choose the guy who's going to break your heart. And take my word for it it'll happen." I walk through my bedroom door with Grayson trailing closely behind me. "Grayson, Austin is your friend! You love him what your problem?" I sit on my bed while he just stands in the doorway.
"My problem is that I--" he cuts himself off and his featured soften. "Nothing's my problem." He says trying to play it cool, like he didn't just explode. I quickly stand up from my bed. "No, no you definitely have a problem. And you definitely don't want to tell me!" I say walking towards him. "I don't have a problem Y/N. Go out with Austin if you want to so bad." Grayson looks down at the carpet, his hair falls in front of his face making it impossible for me to see him. "No Grayson I told you something I didn't want to tell you, it's your turn. Spill it." "I can't--" "yes you can." "No Y/N I really can't it's not that sim--" "Grayson just tell me!" "I can't tell you!" "I told you my thing so yes you can tell m--"
"I'm in love with you!" After the words fly from his mouth, a look of horror falls on his face. " oh fu--" "Grayson, that's a lot to put on me all the sudden." I move a strand of hair behind my ear. "Y/N please. I've liked you since the third grade and all I need you to do is say you at least have some feeling for me. That you like me or something." We both sit in the bed and Grayson takes my hands in his. "Gray I--"
"Please just say it back. Please." I look down, away from Grayson. What does a person do in this situation? I didn't find Grayson absolutely revolting, but he's my best friend. I had just never thought of him as anymore then that before. I look back up at Grayson with a sad, sympathetic smile. Immediately, he pulls his hands away. "I knew it. I knew this would happen. I knew you wouldn't feel the same that's why I didn't want to tell you." He stands up and walks towards my bedroom door.
"Grayson wait--" I stand up as well trying to get to him before he could leave. "I don't want your pity
Y/N. just go on your date with Austin. I hope he turns out to be the guy you think he is. I hope he treats you like I know I could." A tear falls down his rosy cheek as He walks out the door, leaving me alone with a shocked look in my face, and without a best friend.
Grayson's P.O.V
1 YEARS LATER
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"Austin could you hand me that box?" I hear
Y/N's soft voice ask her douchebag of a boyfriend. After I left Y/N's house that day, she called and called but I never picked up. Can you blame me? I had completely embarrassed myself. To make things worse, The next day I saw her out with Austin, and that basically confirmed that she never had feelings for me. We haven't talked since that day. We exchanged glances for a couple weeks but after a while, it was like we were strangers meeting for the first time. I still think she's the most beautiful girl in the world though. And I still lover her. But now, my chances of being with her were an all time low.
"Austin could you please help me grab this ?" I hear her ask loudly this time. I look over and see Austins back facing Y/N as he talks to his friends. As she struggles to grab a box of supplies for the project the class is working on. I can tell she's annoyed. You can practically see the steam coming out of her ears as she watches her boyfriend entirely ignore her. "Austin!" He doesn't even turn around to acknowledge her. She lets out a frustrated groan and continues to reach for the box. I walk up next to her and reach for the box, grabbing it with ease. "There." I hand her the box and give her a sad smile. "Oh. T-Thanks Grayson." I nod my head and go back to my desk, far, far, away from Y/N.
She walks over to Austin, setting down the box on a separate desk, and sitting on his lap. He wraps his arm around her waist in a possessive way, with a harsh grip. She try's to get his attention but he only ignores her, laughing at crude jokes with his friends, and winking at his friends girlfriends when none of them were paying attention. But Y/N pays attention. And she watches all of it. She turns her head away and laughs when she expected to, and when the spotlight isn't on her, a blank, bored expression sits on her face. She looks over at me for a split second, of course me already staring at her. She looks me up and down and sends me a small smile. But her head is quickly turned back by her boyfriends hand, turning her back to only pay attention to only him. I turn my head down to my desk. Listening to Ethan, and our other friends talking about plays for the football game tomorrow night. Which I should probably play attention to. But how could I when the girl I'm madly in love with, sits 20 feet away from me with a boy who doesn't love her. At least not as good as I could. I could giver her everything she needs. Everything she wants. But instead, I sit, daydreaming about a girl I can't have. All because I came on too strong. All because she couldn't say it back.
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Do you ever just wanna yell at people? Really loud? That they're stupid? Cause me too.
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