⚠️Guys! I have two others (dolan twins) books and if I published them would anyone actually read them?⚠️ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Are you going to McKenna's party tonight?" "No thank you. As much as you'd like to think differently, being surrounded by gross, drunk sweaty bodies is not really my ideal Saturday night." I say taking a swig of the water bottle in my hand. "Cmon when was the last time we went out together?" Lucy turns towards me while shoving a pile of popcorn in her mouth. "We went to the store together last week!" I shout in a shocked tone. Lucy rules her eyes. "C'mon I mean seriously went out?" I only shrug my shoulders playing with my nails. "Y/N if this is about Ethan, you're going to have to get over him at some point. Let's just go to the party. It'll get your mind of that jerk."
She was right. I had basically been living under a rock since I left Ethan at Grayson's house a few weeks ago. It probably didn't help that I had completely shut off my phone, shutting me out of the world, after Ethan spammed me for days. Currently, my phone was in the back of my junk drawer. And I plan for it to remain there until I was over this "slump" you could say.
"Ok, 30 minutes, if you're absolutely miserable we'll leave." Lucy tries to bargain. I give her a half skeptical look. "And I'll buy you a smoothie on the way there." That caught my attention. "Ok fine what do I wear?"
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"Are you ready yet?!" I hear Lucy shout from the bottom of the stairs. I roll my eyes, running my hands through my hair one last time. "Coming!"
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"Dang girl look at you!" Lucy shouts looking at me up and down. I start walking towards the door. "Come on I want to get there as soon as I can do I can leave as soon as I can." She chuckles and follows me through the door.
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"Ok so I heard Aaron Whitney was here so I was thinking maybe you two could..." "no, lucie I said we could go out together. Just you and I. I'm not here so you can hook me up with some guy I barley even know. Besides he's Ethan's friend. That just feels wrong." Lucy and I had just stepped in the door and she was already trying to get me latched on to a new guy. She rolls her eyes and crosses her arms. "Yea he's Ethan's friend! That's exactly why you should go out with him! Get back at the scum!" I look down and take a deep breathe. "I'm going to go get a drink, do you want anything?" "Nah I'm good for now, thanks though hun!" With that, lucie walks into the crowd of bodies and I make my way to the kitchen to find myself a water.
"Y/N! Glad you could make it." I feel an arm sling around me. "Oh h-hey Grayson how are you?" I lightly scan around him hoping Ethan isn't near him. "I'm good, miss you...Ethan misses you." He quiets down towards the end of his sentence. I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss him too. It feels like he still had part of me with him everywhere he goes. I get knocked out of my thoughts by tears starting to well up in my eyes. "Hey gray, I'll be back in a minute. I think Lucy has my phone so..." what I said was partially true. Lucy did have my phone because she didn't want me to escape into the corner to stare at it all night. But the reason I wanted to find her was because I had already had enough. I wanted to go home.
Just as I reach the living room, I bump into a tall muscular body. "Oh I'm sorry I wasn't looking where I was going." I say with a fake overly kind voice. "I-Its fine." I look up at the person and see Ethan. The one person I had been trying to avoid the last few weeks. And here I am, standing less then a foot away from him. My heart starts to breathe and my breathe becomes heavy. "Um do you want a drink?" I ask in an attempt to not make this situation more awkward then it already was. Even though I'm pretty sure it had already hit its peak of uncomfortable. "N-No thanks. I actually don't drink anymore so..." I look up and make eye contact with him for the first time tonight. He's already looking at me. A look of pain still on his face. We stand and stare at each other while loud music blares, and sweaty bodies move quickly around us.
An arm roughly hits my back, causing me to fly into Ethan. I feel his arms wrap gently around my waist. I look up at him, with the grip on my waist tightens. "Y/N?" My cheeks turn a dark shade of red, and suddenly everything around us disappears, like no one is around us. "Can we talk outside?" Spot Lucy a few feet away from me shaking her head with a stern look in her face. I just shake my head and turn back to Ethan. "Yea let's go." Ethan starts walking towards the door with my hand in his, our fingers laced together, but he quickly pulls it away. "Sorry. Old habits die hard." He says awkwardly. Ethan and I are standing outside now. The music now slightly muffled and the amount of people lessens.
"Ethan I--" "no Y/N please let me talk." Ethan looks at me biting his lip as a tear streaks down his face. He inhales a shaky breath and starts talking. "I-I hurt you. So bad and I know I did. And I've tried for weeks but I can't forgive myself. You were the one and I screwed it up." Multiple tears fall from his eyes and i walk closer taking one of his hands in mine. "I don't know if I ever will forgive myself. I'm not good enough for you and if I'm not now I never will be." He pulls his hand away and reaches into his pocket, pulling out a small box. "I-I went and bought this the day you left. The day I screwed everything up." He opens the box and a small diamond ring shines. The very ring is admired as I walked past the jewelry store with Ethan. "I want you to have it." "Ethan no you keep it. Give it to someone you'll really love one day." "I really love you. And I only want to see this ring on you." Ethan and I both are bawling out eyes out now. "I know you wanted this ring Y/N. I'd been planning on buying it for months. I don't want anyone else to have it." He grabs my hand and places the box in it. "E-Ethan we can--"
"Y/N, let's go." Lucy appears outside of the house with her keys in her hand. "It's been 30 minutes." She says glaring at Ethan the whole time. "Um I'll meet you in the car in a second. Ok?" I give her a reassuring look and she walks to the car. "Ethan. I loved you. I still love you. And maybe someday things will be different but for right now I still need time." "I-I love you so much I" Ethan still has tears streaming down his face as I cup his cheek in my hand. "Bye Ethan." I lean up planting a small kiss in his soft lips. I feel his muscles relax as he wraps his arm around my waist. "How do I go on without you?" His live is slightly calmer now. A loud car horn goes off, telling me I have to hurry. "Bye Ethan." I walk away towards Lucy's car and get in the passenger seat. I watch Ethan walk back into the house, his hands stuffed in his pockets and his head hung shamefully low. "What was that about?" Lucy asks as she pulls away from the driveway. "I don't want to talk about it." I glare out the window, thinking about everything I've been through with Ethan. And how because of one night, everything is different.
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Part 3?!?!?!? I'm sorry I haven't been on top of updating lately. I have volleyball school babysitting and my brain is fried. I promise I'll update more in the next few months. Thanks for being patient❤️~C🌺
