*morning*
I woke up and grabbed my phone, it was 9:20. It was also valentines day. When we went shopping yesterday I got hayes two bmth shirts he wanted, a SnapBack new been wanting, candy and a beanie. I was really excited. I turn to hayes and cuddle into him, I take a picture of us and post it on twitter and Instagram with the caption 'happy valentines day and three months to the bae' . I posted it and put my phone down. "Wake up babe" I whisper and hug him. He hubs back. "Happy three months and valentines day" he said and we sat up. We woke up everyone. "I got something for everyone last night" I say and run to the other room to get it. I give Cheyenne a teddy bear and chocolate, I give Taylor 3 new bandanas and chocolate, I give Cameron a beanie, and a SnapBack with candy. I give Brent candy, and two snapbacks. And I go get hayes'stuff. And he gets mine. I walk back and he gives me mine first. I open it and he got me 2 beanies, a giant teddy bear that's the size of me and a huge box of chocolates. I hug him and thank him and give him his. He opens it and loves it. "I love you" he says and hugs me. "I love you too" I say and hug back. Taylor got me and Cheyenne flowers and me a bandanna to match his. Cameron got everyone a ton of candy.
"So what are we gonna do today?" I ask everyone.
"Well me and Cameron were going to go hang out with all the guys." Taylor says and we nod
"Me and Cheyenne have plans" Brent says.
"I have plans for me and jay" hayes says and I look at him
"What are we doing?" I ask him
"You'll see" he says and I just nod. I was really excited.
"Okay well where me and jay are going we have to leave in about an hour. So we gotta get ready" hayes says and I get up to get ready. I get my bag and go I to the bathroom I put on some black skinnies with a bmth shirt. I brushed my hair and let it go natural with the beanie that hayes gave me. I put on some shoes. And walked out. Hayes was in a OM&M shirt. We said bye to everyone and left. "So where are we going?" I ask and he still refuses to tell me. We pull in and I instantly know what it is. WERE AT A BMTH CONCERT FEATURING OF MICE AND MEN!!!!! I can't get words out I just hug hayes super tight. We get out of the car and go in the arena. "Oh and did I forget to mention we have back stage passes." Hayes said and I freaked out. We ran to where we were going to be and the concert started. It was bmth first.
"CAN YOU FEEL MY HEARRRRTTT" I screamed out as they were playing "I'm scared to get close and I hate being alone I long for the feeling to not feel at all the higher I get the lower I sink I can't drown my demons they know how to swim" I sing. The concert was over and it was time to meet bmth. We went back stage and it was my turn to meet them. I went up and oli hugged me. I started to cry so hard. "You saved me. You've helped me through depression and self harm. Thank you." I say to him crying. "Please don't hurt yourself. I love you" he said and I hugged him once more before meeting everyone else. It was over and me and hayes went to the car. I was still crying. "Why didn't you tell me?" Hayes asks as we drive away. "Tell you what?" I ask "that you were depressed and you self harmed." He says slowly. "I- I just um, I don't like telling people about it." I say looking down. "You dont hurt yourself anymore right?" He asks. And honestly I don't know what to say. I haven't cut in about 3 months. But I know if something happens. I might. "Well, I haven't in three months. The last time I did it was before we got together. And I'm not as depressed since I've been with you" I say looking out the window. He pulls my face to him. But the car stops, we get out and go up to his room, and sit down. "How long?..." He asks "a year." I say in a hush voice. "Why?" He asks as I see a tear to down his cheek. "It's just hard sometimes" I say and he hugs me. We just sit there for a while. "How about we make hot chocolate and watch youtubers?" He says and I agree. I go down stairs and make the hot chocolate and he finds some videos to watch. "Wanna watch pewdiepie?" He asks me and I nod. I love a lot of youtubers actually. We watch his videos for about two hours. Now I'm making him watch our2ndlife videos. It's really funny. I couldn't stop laughing at Ricky's new video. After we were done I got a call from my mom. "Hello?" I say into the phone. "Jaylinn, you need to come home now." She said and sounded like she was crying. "What's going on?! What's wrong?" I say. "I'll explain when you get here just hurry." She says and I hang up, now crying. "I have to go." I say and run downstairs. He follows. "Text me" he says I nod and run to my house. Theirs ambulances there and everything when I see them carying out lance on a stretcher. "What's going on?" I ask my mom crying really hard now. "Lance isn't doing good jay. We're going to the hospital now." She says and pulls me to the car. I can't stop crying I live lance with all my heart he's my big brother. We get to the hospital and I follow my mom. We were just sitting there for a while. It was now around 9. "Jay, Nash is waiting in the parking lot for you. You're going to go stay with them for the night okay?" She says to me. "But-" I try to argue but I know it will cause more stress. "Okay" I say and walk to his car and get in the passengers seat. "You okay?" Nash asks me sincerely. "I'm fine" I say and she drives me to my house. "Go in and grab what you need. Then just walk on over." He says and I thank him. I to upstairs and fall to the floor crying. I get my stuff and sit there crying my eyes out. I look to my dresser and see my blade. I haven't touched it in 3 months. I walk over to it slowly and pick it up. I sit back down and take it to my wrist. I cut three times. And stop. No. I put on my jacket and go to hayes' house. I was still crying a little bit. He opend the door and hugged me and kissed my head. "I'm sorry..." He said and we walked up to his room. We sat down. "So what happend?" He asks and grabs my arm. I flinch at the pain and pull my arm away. Yep. He noticed. "No.....jay no" he said tears streaming down his face. "I'm sorry....." I say looking away. "No I'm sorry I wasent there, I should have texted you and checked up on you." He says and I shake my head. He pulls up my sleeve and looks at the scars and new cuts. He kisses them and hugs me. I felt so happy. I felt loved. "I'm going to always be here for you jay. No matter what" he says and I tear up more. "I love you hayes" I say "I love you too" he says and we fall asleep.
(A/N) this is short but I put a lot of thought into it so yeah hope you liked it
