Swaragini : A tale...(RagSan-Swalak)( Unedited)

Part 21- Sanskar's POV

the episode starts with sanskar and swara standing while swara says : sanskar....
she suddenly takes a bottle of water from her hand bag and gives it to him.
Sanskar tries to stop his tears and takes the bottle , he starts drinking the water and after that he says : swara............ i am sorry........ its just that tears flow from my eyes whenever i think of those times...........

Swara eyes him confused and says politly : why sanskar.......... what happened...........................???
Sanskar eyed her with tears while he starts : i , rageshwari and harsh used to be best friends , actually i and harsh used to like her but her nature was as if every person she meets is her best friend ....................(he paused as he remembers some memories of the three of them playing and then continues) she used to be a normal girl though being a princess , i never saw that attitude in her eyes which i used to see in other princesses eyes and that was the reason i fell for her cute , innocent and lovely actions............. she was a rebellious girl .......... but with a dignity to share her views.......................( swara smiled as she remembered that she's totally opposite , what her neighbours used to tell about swarra that she is so sweat but always a shaitan she always points out the wrong but if the person who did wrong is not taken from her eyesight , it would result in dangerous situation of that person)
At one side on the screen small swara is seen taking a water gun behind a boy while saying : i'll not leave you teased my friend, i'll not leave you

While the other side we see small ragini saying to her father : bauji , the mistake was of sheena , she pushed priya............ and i only stopped priya from pushing her back but sheena should be punished na????????
Sanskar continues : we grew up happily playing ...... while i and harsh never used to do anything except for fight though we were great friends but we always fought for rageshwari................................. she never understood it..................... and one day it so happened that harsh needed to go to his region with his father and i also had to go with my family ................ we both had to go at same time just next day to her birthday....... i was really watiting for everything to sort out so that i can go back to rageshwari and play with her like before but destiny had some other plans for us.................. the next day itself i got to know the news of maharaja , maharani and rageshwari's death....................................i was broken ............... my soul reason for being alive was snatched from me in 2 days....... i never got in contact with harsh after that so i don't know how he felt.........................i was broken ......... for i month i couldn't even gather hope to come out of my home............. i always found her in all places so close to me but still so far from me............................ i started to hate god , he snatched my happiness , he only did it , i became of stone...............i forgot to smile and only knew how to get angry.................. my anger became my solution to all my sadness ......................it helped me to divert my mind.................i came to be known as a bully .................. and then we shifted to Mumbai ................. i became just like that in Mumbai too and coming in contact with aniket and we both together........ you know we both raged children........ on the first day , when just like i did in my second year , i thought to rag children ............. i saw her(he paused as he remembered how on ragini's first day of collage he saw her eyes , fearful eyes trying to hide herself , he was lost in those eyes and those mesmerising eyes just made her remember rageshwari)...........

.. i tried to make myself believe that no one is like rageshwari but still my heart was pushing myself towards her and to get out of this feeling called her in between that crowd.................wearing those heals she felt the pain of falling , the fear of getting hurt but my heart was killing me from inside......... what i was doing with her was just killing me but i just couldn't stop because if i did that, i would betray my rageshwari , my heart told this to me( sanskar smiled as he thought how his heart felt rageshwari's presence but his mind refused) ................. i tried my best to ignore that face whose every feature reminded me of rageshwari , my rageshwari except for those fearful eyes just the opposite of my fearless rageshwari............... i tried my best to make myself hate her, sometimes by telling myself how fearful person she is and sometimes by twlling myself that she's nothing more than a maids daughter but still i couldn't resist her...........................

and i just found my rageshwari in her........................on that night i was shocked when i got t know that she was portraying as rageshwari....................my heart again was shocked , the girl in whom i found my rageshwari was the one portraying as rageshwari, again my heart betrayed me but to make myself believe , i shouted on her, now i don't even remember what i told her that day but still........................i know what i did was so wrong........................i behaved so badly with her............................
He couldn't speak more and was just on the edge on crying while pool of tears were already flowing from her eyes....................
Swara was also in the same position as she could feel his pain......................his pain of losing her forever.......................

and then finding her just to lose her again.......
So guys i end this part here , time shortage, guys i know my writing skills are not at all good but still i tried to explain sanskar's pain, i know it was not described in a good way but i hope that it was not the worst piece of writing, sorry if it was guys and thanks for always being there to support me even though i am such a bad updater....................