One Weekend Of Giving In

Chapter 55

He gave me a quick hug and crouched down to tell my gummy bear about how he'd gotten his ass kicked by one of the guys at the gym because he'd been so distracted all morning. An elbow jabbed me and Spencer kissed where he'd felt it, then stood up and searched my eyes. If Cory was right, and honestly I had no doubt he was, then I was being stupid for trying to push what Spencer and I have away. I loved him and the thought of not being with him for even another moment felt like the purest form of torture. I needed to fix this. NOW.

"Morning." His warm voice was soft and unsure?

"I'm glad you're here, I was worried after what happened last night you wouldn't come by again."

"Of course I'm here. Are we okay? Do you want me to back off? If you don't feel comfortable around me, you can tell me and I'll back off."

I smiled and grabbed his arm, "Didn't I kiss you first?" Pulling him closer in, I leaned up on my toes and kissed him soundly.

"Mackenzie," he breathed and rested his forehead against mine after we pulled away, "I need you to tell me what you're wanting from this. I don't want to just assume whatever is happening between us."

I took a deep breath and ran my fingers across the back of his neck.

"I can't imagine my life without you in it, and I'll take that any way I can because I don't deserve you, but-" I huffed out a frustrated laugh, my earlier fears threatening to stop me, "It's not fair to even ask anything from you."

"Let me be the judge of that." He kissed my nose then rested his forehead against mine again. He wants this too! He still wants me!.

Damn Mackenzie, do something! You're the only one stopping it. I took another deep breath in and out before talking.

"Even though I messed up before, I never stopped loving you Spencer, and I want to be with you in every way possible. The way you talk to him, and take care of us even though you don't have any reason to, well, not to scare you or anything but I have flashes of you and me raising this baby, as a family. And I want that. I want it so bad. But I feel horrible for even telling you this...He's not yours Spence, and me being pregnant, this child being made, this is what broke your heart into pieces. So I can't ask for a future with you because of what I did, it would be selfish of me."

"You're wrong Mac. I tried to live without you, I tried to let you go and I always couldn't. To me, there is no one else, it's only been you since the day I laid eyes on you. I love you, I love everything about you, which means I love him too. Those flashes you get of that future you want so bad? I get them too, all the time." He cupped my face gently and leaned back to look into my eyes. "I don't care if he isn't mine. If you let me, I'll raise him like he is, I'll take care of both of you for the rest of my life, and I promise I'll be right there with you to tell him about his real dad, and how great of a man he was."

Tears filled my eyes and eventually pooled over, I don't know what I ever did to deserve men like Jace and Spencer, and their families, but I thank god for putting them in my life. "If we do this," I warned, "you won't be able to get rid of me again." I laughed and kissed him softly. "I'm in this forever if you are," I whispered against his mouth.

"Forever." He agreed and scooped me into his arms, carrying me to the living room, our lips never parting.

When he sat on the couch, I pulled back slightly to smile at him, and caught a glimpse of my family still sitting at the table. I looked closer to see the three of them smiling at us, Carly and mom had tear-streaked faces, remembering how much the entryway echoed and knew they'd heard everything. Having them support me and being happy for us meant the world to me, as I'm sure it did for Spencer.