The Hero's Cry

chapter 26

Sara's point of view:

I was sitting on one of the couches that was still here when Nicole died.
The place hasn't changed a bit even mine and Nicole shared bedroom was exactly how we left it for reasons I didn't understand why I guess on some level dad kept hoping you and Nicole would come back like this was all some bad dream said Laurel handing me a glass of wine what would of been here to come back to I mean dad wasn't exactly dad of the year or years I said making Laurel sigh I know that honey said Laurel placing one of her hands on my left leg.
I wish you had come home sooner then you did then maybe it wouldn't of gotten this bad with dad I said I felt bad as soon as that left my lips when I saw laurels face fall.
I wish I could of home home sooner but you know how mom is Laurels face paled even more before clearing her throat was said Laurel it was a good thing Laurel would never find out that it was me who killed her I mean Nikki was there too but I was the one who shot her and the pit her in the ocean hopping nobody would find her but that plan failed when a fishing crew manged to find mom's crystual body it took the dumb police to take a DNA sample from the rock that they disvored it had real human DNA in it.
I was just lucky that nobody connected it back to me and Nicole wasn't alive to back me up if anyone found out it was me or us I should say mom wasn't always like that you remember that don't you asked Laurel I know but it's so fuzzy it's hard to see her in a good light I said im sorry for her said Laurel I shook my head you shouldn't be sorry for moms actions and mistakes it was her desion and hers alone not dad's not ours hers you shouldn't feel that guilt I said grabbing laurels hand and squeezing it gently Laurel gave me a soft smile thank ​you for those kind words said Laurel making me return her smile it was sometimes hard to remember that I was mad at my eldest sister she could of stopped some of the pain but as I got older I realized laurel was a child herself when all this shit happened between our parents but at the time I didn't see that I only saw as it as betrayal And now I felt slightly bad about all the horrible things I ever told Laurel when we where younger but I wasn't the type of person to say sorry for my actions it wasn't in my nature even though that got me in trouble growing up and still does to this day.
I missed this said Laurel cutting me from my thoughts if only Nikki where still here Laurel added making me freeze up sorry said Laurel who had been studying  my body language I shook my head despite keeping stiff as a rock  she was your sister to she might of hurt me but she didn't hurt you I said taking a sip of my wine that Laurel manged to give me.
What Nikki did to you was horrible and I don't approve of what she did I mean leaving with Oliver was just horrible but I did try to warn you about Oliver track record said Laurel Making me narrow my eyes I didn't come to visit my eldest sister for her to only tell her I told you so after not seeing each other for three years.
But what she did was even worst and im so sorry I wasn't there to offer my comfort or just to be a sister said Laurel making me shake my head I probably wouldn't of taken your comfort I was hurt I was snapping at everyone I snapped at dad before I left I pretty much left starling city right Nikki died and before you came back there was nothing you could of done to make me stay Laur I said it would of made me feel better if i tried said laurel making me sigh my sister was very stubborn it seemed to be a trait that us lance sisters shared since both dad and mom where very stubborn it was only fair there children would become stubborn as well the only difference was we got the double dose of stubbornness from both sides of the family so it made it only worst for our parents and each other to handle.

well i'm here now aren't i i teased lightly leaning against the couch giving laurel a true soft smile that not many people got to see now days only barry, my boys and lisa got to see but this was the first time laurel was seeing it in years laurel gave me another soft smile yes you are and i still can't quiet believe it said laurel making me chuckle softly let's say i had some people that opened my mind on some things i said who asked laurel that's classified i said making laurel laugh oh of course you would use that line said laurel with a smile well you are a lawyer you should be use to some lack of information i said making laurel nod true said laurel.

wheres father i asked finishing off my wine he's working a late case don't worry he doesn't know your here i know better then to open that can of worms said laurel thank you i know you said he's doing better and i'm proud of him but the damage is done and i don't think i can ever forgive him i said he's different now said laurel he changed when it was too late too much damage happened to heal all the wounds i said give him time you'll see he's better said laurel maybe i said doubting i would ever forgive him.