Through thick and thin; A Conor Maynard fanfiction

Two

An; so apparently this chapter wasn't published for some reason so I'll have to publish it now as the last one wasn't the whole thing.

Conor's P.O.V

I park Jess's car in its usual spot just outside the front door, now right next to my parents BMW. Mum and dad have a spare key to our apartment and had got here before us. Jess carry Leonelle in from the car leaving me with my rucksack and her handbag, it felt good to be home after two weeks on the road and even though I love touring is it very hard not to fall into bad habits with late nights out, something which had been turned down quite a bit after Leonelle entered our lives.

"You look gorgeous Jess"

I hear my mum compliment Jess as she greet her in the hallway and I lock the car before joining them.

"There you are, how are you doing Connie?"

My mum engulf me in a warm hug as I enter the house.

"I'm fine"

My mum let go of me and switch places with my dad who just pat my shoulder. I wasn't in the mood of talking to neither of them right now.

I walk in and drop my stuff off in our bedroom, checking myself in the whole length mirror. I'm excited for tonight, it'd been months since we got a night just the two of us together.

"No Helen, not in the near future it would be a bit much now with Conor's career and stuff, one is enough at the time being"

I hear Jess and my mum discussing something I've been thinking about for at least a year now. Ever since we got Leonelle have I known that I want another kid, as I've got siblings do I know how much joy they can bring into your life, I want Leonelle to have someone like Jack is to me, someone you can trust with your life. I sit down on the end of the bed, knowing Jess didn't feel the same as I do made me heartbroken, all the plans of being a dad of two by next year seem to have disappeared in a second. I sigh and rest my head in my hands.

"You alright?"

Jess peek in through the crack of the door and sit down beside me when she sees me.

"Conor you know you can tell me everything"

I nod and stand up, pulling my fingers through my hair that's now a bit messy after the show.

"I know, let's just go"

Jess look at me concerned but follows me out from our bedroom to say goodbye to Leonelle, mum and dad.

"Bye princess, have fun with grandma and granddad"

Leonelle flung her small arms around my neck as I crouch down to give her a hug. She's just the most precious thing god's ever created.

"I love you daddy"

My heart melt as she says it, almost making me cry there and then. I knew I'd missed a lot of her upbringing because of my career and I did always feel guilty everytime I had to call Jess to tell here I wouldn't be able to get home in time as I'd promised to earlier in the morning. All the phone calls from Jess telling me about Leonelle's new words when she first started speaking and the fact that her first sentence was "Is daddy gone?", when Jess told me that did I actually cry in silence, alone in my hotel room unable of doing anything.

My career made having kids tough, way tougher than I could've ever expected but I would never stop what I'm doing, since I broke up with Marisha had I told myself to never try and choose between the things you love, because if you love something you'll make it work no matter what.

"Love you too princess"

I kiss Leonelle's head before swapping places with Jess for her to say goodbye too.