A Killer Loves Me

Chapter Twenty-Two

It's been a week since Sarah and Christy's death. I haven't gotten out of bed other than to go to school. And there I just ignore everyone, at lunch I sit off to the side by myself.

I haven't talked to my friends since what happened at Scarlett's house. I know that I'll have to face them sooner or later, but for now I have just been avoiding them.

Scarlett's tried calling me a couple times but I don't answer, and I ignore everyone's text.

It's Sunday night and I'm laying in bed with my headphones in, blaring music. This is what my week has consisted of, with a couple conversations with my mom.

As I'm changing the station on my pandora I feel the side of my bed push in. I look up and see Connor sitting next to me. I pull out my headphones and sit up.

"Hey Abbs." He says. I haven't talked to him all week. He's tried to start conversations but I just walk away. If I talk to him I know I'll ask about Shane.

"Hey." I say. "How have you been?" He asks. "Good I guess." I say quietly.

"Why have you been avoiding everyone? You know you'll have to talk to your friends sooner or later." He tells me. "I know. But I'm just not ready to face them yet. They probably hate me after how I acted towards them." I tell him.

"They don't hate you. They're probably just mad that you aren't telling them anything and that you're avoiding them." He tells me. "I know." I say quietly.

I rest my head on his shoulder. He wraps his arm around my shoulders and kisses the top of my head.

"Everything will be fine Abbs. I promise you this." He says before getting up and leaving my room.

I put my headphones back in and finally read the messages that people sent me.

What's wrong Abbi?- Meredith

Please talk to me- Scarlett

Can you just tell me you're ok?- Scarlett

Please answer me- Scarlett

I guess you don't wanna talk. But I'll be waiting for your response- Scarlett

Abbi are you ok?- Pat

Can we talk?- Haley

If you won't talk to anyone at least let us know you're ok- Coby

After reading the messages I feel like a douchebag. How could I just ignore all of them when I needed them most. I think now is the time for me to finally talk to them. So I text Scarlett back.

Can I meet with everyone somewhere?- I text

Yeah. How about Sammie's(restaurant) at 6:00?- Scarlett

That's good. See you then- I text back.

It's 5:00 right now so I jump in the shower. When I get out I throw on jeans, a t-shirt, and my converse.

When I go downstairs and check the time I see that it's 5:45. I ask Connor to drive me and he says yes, so we leave.

"You finally gonna talk to them?" He asks as we pull out of the driveway. "Yeah. I decided I've spent enough time wallowing in my guilt and sorrow." I tell him. "Good." He says.

We arrive at Sammie's 10 minutes later at exactly 6:00. When I go inside I see everyone, except for Tod, already there sitting in a booth in the corner. I go over and sit in a empty seat next to Meredith.

"Hey." I say. "Hey. So why'd you wanna meet everyone?" Scarlett asks.

"We have some things to talk about. Starting with how I acted towards Haley." I say. "Yeah." Haley says as she stares at me from across the booth.

"I'm so sorry about flipping on you. I was just in a bad mood, it was completely my fault and you didn't deserve it." I tell her. "I definitely didn't." She says as she looks down at the table.

"I'm sorry to everyone for being so distant lately. I've just had a lot on my mind." I say. "What's on your mind?" Meredith asks.

"I don't know if-" I start but Haley cuts me off. "Don't even say you can't! If you do I swear I'm walking away and never talking to you again!" Haley yells, which causes everyone in the restaurant to look over at us.

"Calm down Haley." Jace says as he puts his hands on her shoulders.

"It's someone named Shane Stevens. I can't remember ever knowing him, yet I dream of him and Connor said we dated for three years." I tell them. "Are you sure that's what Connor said?" Coby asks.

"Yes I'm sure. I heard him and my mom having a conversation about me. She was talking about a car accident and about how I can't realize that I don't remember my old life. Then she said that I couldn't find out about me ruining Shane's life." I tell them.

"A car accident? Do you think that maybe you got in a car accident and lost your memory?" Jace asks. "Maybe. But I need to know what she meant about me ruining Shane's life." I say.

"Why don't you just ask her?" Scarlett asks. "I did but she flipped out and said that I never knew a Shane." I tell them. "That's really weird." Meredith says. "Yeah." I say.

We all sit there for about ten minutes in awkward silence until Haley stands up. "I'm leaving now. I'll see you guys later I guess." She says as Jace and her stand up and get out of the booth.

"Haley. Are we good now?" I ask. "Not really. I still have to think about stuff." She says as she walks away with Jace trailing her.

Everyone else starts to leave to. They all say the same thing when I ask if we're ok.

I have to think about it.

So I call Connor and he comes and gets me. The ride home is quiet, which I'm thankful for. But as I head to my room he catches my arm.

"Abbi please just tell me you'll be ok. No matter what." He asks. "I will be. I promise." I say.

Then I walk upstairs to my room and go to sleep.

My dreams are full of images of Shane and of a car accident, where I was crying out to a guy that was in the driver seat.

Just before I wake up the guy says to me..

"I'll love you forever Abbi. You're my baby girl, just please dont forget me."

Then I say

"I could never forget you daddy."

Then I jolt up in bed as my alarm clock goes off.