The Truth

Flashbacks

I skidded into the driveway and told the kids to get out of the car, Rebecca helped her brothers out and took my keys to unlock the front door of the house, All of a sudden my phone vibrated in my pocket I pulled it out, it was a notification from twitter.

@VanessaAnderson are you coming to watch my performance or will the dare have to have photographic proof cause we both know that I don't want any pictures taken XD

Shit! I forgot about the stupid dare games I had with Jake!

I tweeted him back: @JakeBuckner Can't make it to your 'performance' tonight so the photographic proof will have to be posted on twitter or else it's a forfeit!;)

I slammed my phone down on the seat beside me and dumped my face into my palms "UGHHHHHHHH" I moaned really loudly. I hopped out of the car and stormed into the house, the kids were upstairs packing. I ran to my bedroom and flopped onto my bed, maybe I should text Chloe?

Me:Chloe please don't be mad

Me:I was gonna tell u soon I just wasn't ready

Me:Chloe I know uv read these cause it says read

Me:Come on Chloe put urself in my shoes

Chloe:I thought you could trust me

Me:U think I didn't tell u cause I didn't trust u?

Chloe:Y else?

Me:Chloe finding out that I was adopted was the biggest thing that ever happened to me! It took long enough for me to process how my whole life has been a lie! And ur angry cause I wasn't ready to tell u!?

Chloe:Save it Nessa

I stopped trying with her cause she'd just find a way to lash back at me. The one thing that was know crossing my mind was: Can she keep my secret? All I wanted to do was reverse time and just skip last year's thanksgiving! I needed to relieve my anger and stress and I remembered what the school psychiatrist said about how keeping a diary helps calm down in these sort of situations. I went and rummaged through my drawers, I pulled out a pink leather diary which had 'SHIT' written across the front cover, I opened it, grabbed a pen and began writing.

So my life is SHIT. It has always been Shit and it will always be Shit and it took me until last thanksgiving to realize that. I know no one will ever read this but I need to tell someone or even something about what happened last Thanksgiving, just to get it off my chest. So here it goes.

Every year my grandma hosts a massive Thanksgiving party, mostly only friends and family attend but I'll tell you one thing she has a lot of friends and a huge family! Last year she decided to make it exclusive and small, only inviting Karen, John, the kids and I because we lived only about a block away. We had no clue why she decided to do this but we went along with it because lately she's been kinda... loopy I guess. When we arrived at her house she hadn't any of the usual decorations up and she had no food cooked. She made us all sit in her living room for about twenty minutes in complete silence. We assumed that she was talking to herself in the hallway cause we heard a lot of mumbles and whispering. She walked in and sat right across from me on the couch. She began talking about how all my siblings had blond hair and blue eyes and I had dark brown hair and hazel eyes, she then moved onto the fact that I was much older than everyone else, in the meantime my Karen and John tried to interrupt but Grandma has knack of speaking very very loudly. She then asked me how I felt being so different, it was an awkward and uncomfortable situation to be in cause I had never really thought about any of that kinda stuff before. My Grandma then took my hands and told me that she was just talking to my mother, I glanced strangely at Karen, I was so confused. She told me that I had a chance to speak to her if I wanted to.