To say I didn't enjoy this night would be a total lie...
Tonight was the senior's farewell...our farewell...
And it was amazing...
We danced...talked...laughed... stared in disgust to all the other creatures dancing in a weird, very nasty and very sexual way...*gauges*
But the part my brain hasn't yet comprehended is our farewell...
Our goodbye...
See, I kept looking at you the most through the night...I don't think you noticed...I hope not cuz oh god...
You looked fine haha
All of our group sat on a table with soft cozy, seats around.
You sat far from me, on the other extreme. But it was okay..I mean, I didn't expect anything to happen, anyways *sighs*
I caught you smiling and laughing lots of times, most of them because of watching the dumb guys drinking their asses off with kamikazes (tequila shots)...it was so much fun and then we girls went to dance and I even drank a cranberry with vodka...
But just one because if not, 2 things would've happen:
1) My parents would surely lock me inside the house forever
2) I could've get high and something's would've happen...because I know that if I got high in that party I would have walked up to you not caring whatever and kissed you...all jokes aside, that's exactly what I would've done... because if I thought of it at times during the night, how would my unconscious not do it while being high?
...I hugged you..once more...
My mom came to get me like at 11pm...and I said bye to everyone...except you...
And I felt so bad about it...that as I was walking with my mom to the elevator I couldn't go in...
I told her I hadn't said goodbye to someone...and I ran.
I ran to you...
And when I found you, I followed you like 10sec before actually getting the nerve to hug you...and I did.
I hugged you from behind...like 4 sec..before you turned around...but I couldn't look at you...I just murmured a bye and then ran off...leaving you there probably in a the-hell-just-happened state...
I hugged you goodbye...and those 4sec were my fav part of the night...
I just feel weird now...I have this horrible thinking that it wasn't just a farewell hug...
Why do I feel like this was our goodbye?
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Moonstruck Lullaby
RandomEveryday thoughts and random rambling...where my mind goes when it wanders. Sometimes though, I wish it didn't, because some places I'd rather not return to. Some thoughts I'd rather keep low, some memories in the past. But I've learned that you can...
