Emotionally, I'm alright. For real.
I have true friends to whom I will always be there for and who will bw there when I need them too. I've realized that this is more important than anything, even romantic relationships (at least at this time haha). Its okay, and maybe even more than that.
And yea, even you feel like you can't move on, it's not about it. Who knows, maybe I'll never really get over Softie, the cute guy who was once my best friend/boyfriend/soulmate, haha but that's alright. Sometimes you don't move on, you just learn to cope with it. Because after all, who would want to forget about remarkable moments in their life?
So yea, emotionally, I'm alright. For real. :)
Existentially tho, I'm a mf mess.
It's like everything is taking its place, except me. Today I went to this café all afternoon, and as I was writing my book, I kept thinking bout everything. Or not really. More like, life. Kinda.
Could be a cheesy line idk but there came a moment where I didn't see the point of all of this. Life goes way too fast and half the time is spent in nothing's (or maybe I just wrote this line cuz I liked how it sounded- professionally philosophical lol)...Idk..growing up, choosing a career, having a relationship, going on cheesy dates, getting a master's degree, breakups, getting married, having kids, working, buying groceries, house picking, paying taxes, going on family road trips...
Its like I got tired and I haven't even started university. How can I get tired or even sick, and dread things that I haven't yet done?..
I could go on writing about this...it's like I'm tired of life, and I've yet to really experience it.
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Moonstruck Lullaby
RandomEveryday thoughts and random rambling...where my mind goes when it wanders. Sometimes though, I wish it didn't, because some places I'd rather not return to. Some thoughts I'd rather keep low, some memories in the past. But I've learned that you can...
