Never in my seventeen years of life have I had a boyfriend.
And its been partly my fault, if not entirely.
See, thing is, Idk why but I've never said "yes" to any boy who liked me...
Many reasons could apply here....like the fact that the guys I've liked never have liked me back...and the people who I only see as friends actually see me as more. This sucks, for real. I've been terrified to lose our friendship because of that.
But anyways, I think the main reason is because...well...I'm a coward when it comes to love.
Yes, I've felt it, maybe for one or two guys, and yes, maybe I've thought of me dating one, but when the time of that person asking "Do you want to be my girlfriend?" , I freak out and say no...
Because I'm scared something will go wrong...because I'm scared of love...
Which is ironic considering my affinity to romance books and movies...
I crave so hard to find that type of love, where everyone goes, "awe how cute are they", and we have so much goals and plans for the future...
I crave so hard for someone to just take my hand and say "Cmon, lets go live an adventure" ...
So, why is it that whenever that chance comes, I don't take it?
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Moonstruck Lullaby
RandomEveryday thoughts and random rambling...where my mind goes when it wanders. Sometimes though, I wish it didn't, because some places I'd rather not return to. Some thoughts I'd rather keep low, some memories in the past. But I've learned that you can...
