Moonstruck Lullaby

Risk It

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Picture this,
You fall in love with your best friend. If you put it that way, the mere idea sounds appealing in a way because he/she knows everything about you, so it wouldn't be so hard to label it a relationship.
Now, both of you love each other, but then something stupid happens like, one of you been scared of what could go wrong, thereby risking not only the relationship but your friendship.
Can you imagine losing both your boyfriend/girlfriend and best friend at the same time?...

Same thing happened to me this year...thing is, I didn't risk it, when I should have.
Life's all about taking risks and I was stupid not to.

If I could turn back time....
Well you know the rest. I would change a couple things tbh.
But hey, past is history, as tragic as my pathetic life sounds.

It's been like four months since the thing between us occurred...and I still can't get over it, past it.
But I'll never admit this, not to my friends, and especially not to him.
It's a confession that's going to grave with me.
Unless he finds this, my account, then yea I'm pretty much screwed.
See thing is, I want him to be happy once and for all. I hurt him a lot by rejecting him because of my idiotic overthinking. And yes, I lost him as my best friend also.

This is why I can't tell him what's my account, because he'll read this, and I don't want him to. I can't hurt him anymore, he deserves someone who never rejects him and who acts instead of fearing 'what if's'...

My 11:11 wish this last couple of days has been for him to find this someone who never lets him go and who loves him unconditionally every day of his life. The thought that I could have been that girl runs through my mind so many times, and each time is more painful.

Guys, a little advice...
Risk it.
Take the fucking risk.
Sometimes that's all that's needed for the happy ever after.

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