Possessive Love

29- I'm not fucking my life up, right? ✅

We arrived at the mall and we headed straight to the nearest clothe place. "We'll be walking around, meet us at the parking lot at five." Marcus said and we nodded. The guys left and we began roaming around the store. After a few minutes of looking Danielle decided to scare the crap out of us. "I call dibs!" Danielle yelled and ran to a dress making me and Shawna jump, it was light blue, it was see through from waist to the neck on the back and looked really pretty.

"This one is mine." I said and grabbed a dark red dress, it was strapless and had small designs carved into it it probably reached about a few inches above my thigh. "I'll keep looking." Shawna said and we nodded. I headed to the changing room and tried on the dress, perfect. It hugged my curves perfectly and I could already picture how my make up and hair would look. I smiled and quickly changed into my old clothes. "It's perfect." I told Danielle's and she nodded. "Guys, help!" We quickly ran in with Shawna and she was struggling with her zipper. "My heart, I thought you were bleeding or something." Danielle said and I nodded.

"Sorry." Shawna said sheepishly. I just smiled and help with the zipper, "Ew, no. Shawna said and lifted her other dress it was blue, but really dark. Danielle and I got out and Shawna walked out.

"Well this was easy." Shawna said as we walked out with our bags. We had bought some shoes to go with our dresses and were going to the parking lot. "Is that-" I stopped as I saw Maggie talking to Austin and Marcus while Xander was looking around. "I want to rip her into tiny peices and feed her to Lola." Danielle said and I heard Shawna high five her. "If she touches my man again..." I started trailing off and began walking towards them. "Hey babe." I said and kissed Austin and looked at Maggie and gave her a smug smile. She glared at me and I rolled my eyes. "Keep rolling, you might find a brain back there." She said and rolled her own eyes. "Do you know how stupid you sounded by just doing that?" Danielle asked laughing and Shawna nodding.

"Well whatever, I hope you know about the kiss we shared a few hours ago." Maggie told me and I nodded. "Ofcourse I do, and I hope you know that if you touch my man like that ever again I will hurt you." I said with a sickly sweet smile directed at her. She stepped forwards and kissed Austin's cheek and he leaned back right after and wiped his cheek. I let my hand go through to her hair and grabbed the roots and yanked her back. Once she was in front of me I threw a punch, then another and another. "Stop her!" Shawna snapped at Austin. "Why? This is awesome, isn't she just- damn." Maggie was now on the floor.

"Fucken warned you more then once! Popularity isn't earned by being a fucken hoe and trying to steal everyone's boyfriend. Dig through that crappy personality of yours and you might find a great, kind loving girl and watch how many people will be attracted to you." I yelled at her. Did I just hurt her because of my boyfriend? I am so fucken dramatic. Psycho? That too.

"Let's go." Danielle tugged on my arm and I entered the car next to Austin. "Sorry." He said and I shook my head. "Just drive me home please." I muttered and leaned my head against the window. I was so... nice before I met Austin, so... social. Then everything came crashing down to reveal another world where I'm a bitch who beats a girl whenever she gets too friendly with my boyfriend. What happened to me? I love Austin, it's not puppy love. I'm not ruining my life with the choice I am making with him right?

"We're here." Austin leaned to kiss me. "Not now, I'll call you later." I quickly left the car, leaving all my stuff there and went in the house. "You okay honey?" My mom asked. She had sleeping bags under her eyes and her belly was pretty big. "I should be asking you that." I told her. "Well my wedding is in five days, it's pretty normal." She muttered the yawned. "How about I make you some hot chocolate and you sleep?" I asked and she smiled. "You're so sweet." She kissed my forehead and I smiled. I walked to the kitchen and started making hot chocolate. What if I asked him for space? Like some time off while I think everything over?

Really Alma? Back to hurting him only beacuse you're not sure about your feelings?

Right, bad idea. Alright. I'll go to him tell him I love him and that instead of going to prom, I spend time with him alone, I need to talk with him when my siblings and friends won't be wanting to know.

But he asked you to prom in such a cute way!

"Can you stop fucking up my plans?!" I sighed. Great now I'm talking to myself. What's next? I go telling Maggie she can have Austin? He'll no, he's mine.

"Here you go mom." My mom was in her room and she smiled. I sat down on the floor besides her bed and sipped on my chocolate while she drank hers. "What's on your mind honey?" My mom asked and I sighed. "I love Austin but I don't know, I feel hesitant I guess and I feel like talking to him." I said and she nodded.

"About what?" She asked and I shrugged. "I have no idea, I just want to spend time alone with him without having our group wanting to know what we're telling eachother." I answered. "Well, I suck at advise, so don't ask for any. Just do what you think is right but don't hurt or force yourself into something you don't want." Yeah that's the the problem, what do I want?