Possessive Love

37- Honesty ✅

"What exactly did she tell you?" I asked and he looked away from me. "Austin, please just answer." I said and felt my voice crack and I knew the water works were on their way.

"She said that she found you and her brother kissing in the park the night before the whole cafeteria incident happened." He said and I felt a tear roll down my cheek. "Why? What made you believe her? I mean some simple words couldn't have convinced you." I said and I saw him swallow. "Your actions from that morning, when you came up to me, you looked guilty. She also showed me a picture of him kissing a girl who looked like you, but I later on found out it was some junior." He answered and finally looked at me, his face showing genuine pain.

I knew tears were streaming down my face and I didn't care, I want him to see the damage he caused. "I loved you, I loved you more than I loved myself Austin. Hell, I still do! But why? Why would you?-" I let a sob escape my throat and he walked towards me. I felt his arms wrap around me and I pounded my fists against his chest but he wouldn't budge. I slid down the wall, still in his arms and I let him rock me back and forth, I let him whisper a million apologies into my ear, and I let him kiss my forehead, because even if it was just in act of kindness, I couldn't help but think, 'man I miss the feel of his lips against my skin'.

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I woke up, in Austin's arms. I wanted to pretend we were together and that Maggie never got in between us but I can't, because the fear has come back, the fear of loving. I got up and walked around the house I found a room, the closet had some clothes and it was my clothes and Austin's all organized. I grabbed my sweat pants and a long sleeved shirt. I grabbed a towel and some other stuff then went to the bathroom. I quickly cleaned myself up in the shower and did what I had to. After I looked at myself in the mirror.

'You look like a walking zombie'

Guess they were right, there was dark bags under my eyes, my skin pale, and my bones sticking out in un-flattering ways. The things a heartbreak does, I'm pathetic.

I wet my face even though I had showered and scrubbed it until I Saw some red color return to it. I felt tears sting my eyes and I sighed. I hate everyone who was okay with locking me up with Austin. I walked out of the bathroom and went to the kitchen. They planned this perfectly, there was enough stuff in the fridge to last us a few weeks. I feel like having pancakes, or waffles, or both. How about scrambled eggs? That's the easiest so I guess that will be my breakfast. I put a pan to heat up on the stove and grabbed eggs. I suddenly thought about Austin, should I make him breakfast or let him cook for himself. He makes really good lasagna. I wish he didn't know how to cook, I could've made him starve or he could've only fed on fruit and vegtables.

I had made food for both of us and grabbed some juice and poured myself a cup. Austin walked in, apparently he also showered. "Morning." I muttered and he nodded at me. "Morning." He said back and looked at the plates. "Is one mine?" He asked and I nodded. I saw him hold back a smile, well he tried because he failed miserably. "Thank you." I nodded at him and sat down and began to eat. "So, five days if we're walking?" Austin asked and I raised an eyebrow and realized what he was talking about and nodded.

Why are you talking to me? I am supposed to hate you.

"How did you sleep?" Why do you care? "Fine." I answered and he nodded. He's trying to talk to me. He shouldn't be, he should be in a different room or quietly eating! Silence fell between us for a few minutes and when I finished I got up. "I'll wash them, you cooked so I'll wash the dishes." I looked over at the sink that had a few dirty dishes from earlier. I nodded and put my plate in the sink. "Thank you." I said and left, I need to leave. I need to go home. I need to get away from Austin.

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I had locked myself up inside a room and was on my phone, listening to music. " Love's got the best of me
And baby you're making a fool of me." I muttered to myself and sighed. I want to crawl into a hole and die. Alright, I don't want to die but I don't want to be here either. I received a phone call and jumped a little.

I answered and heard my brother's voice. "Hey Alma." I rolled my eyes, of course he would act like nothing happened. "What do you want?" I snapped at him through the phone. And got up to look through the stuff. "Just wanted to check up on my baby sister." He answered without being affected by my tone. "I need pads, or tampons." I muttered and I heard him start to cough. "Why do I care?" He asked and I rolled my eyes and threw myself back at the bed. "You care because your stupid ass decided it would be fun to leave me alone with my ex, that's why you fucken care. Now I need my girl stuff and they better be here in..." I began but trailed off to look at the date. Holy shit, today is the first day of spring break. "I need them here by Tuesday, at nine a.m." I said and I heard him mutter something but not loud enough for me to hear. "Anything else, your highness?" Xander asked and I thought for a few seconds. "Junk food and ice cream." I said and he muttered something again. "Whatever, you'll have them Tuesday morning then." I smiled to myself and then hung up on him. Now I just have to be outside before he arrives on Tuesday.