Wondering

Chapter 4

(This is super random but I'm sure some of you are wondering who I see as the looks of the characters and I will be trying to put something together to post on Instagram. :) my user name is @alonna_w and another insta account with exclusive sneak peaks to my YouTube page. And follow @harrystyleslittlelover on Instagram! When she hits 500 followers she is going to start doing followbacks! )

When I get out of the shower the place is empty. I go back over to my room and get in my closet and stare at my clothes thinking of what to wear to the party while I put on my bra and underwear. I decide to put on my good skinny jeans and a dressy red short sleeve shirt.

I call Niall an hour before he is supposed to come. Luckily he gave me his number when he invited me to the party.

"hey is it ok if I bring some friends...Ronnie was already invited but I have some friends that might like to come if I asked" I say nervously.

"Yea! Bring everyone!" He says excitedly "we would love to have all your friends here" he says

"Ok thank you"

I call everyone and they all agree to come. Myra, Kailey, Jade, Dalton, and Robbie all come to my house to wait. Robbie is going to drive everyone there following me and Niall. I feel better knowing my friends will be there with me. I know Myra doesn't drink and if she has to she will take me home of everybody else is wasted. Kailey is wearing a short skirt and see through white t-shirt with a pink cami under it. Myra is wearing skinny overdistressed jeans with a purple tank top. They probably didn't know what to wear either. None of us did. Jade is wearing a black dress with no straps. It goes well the way her pink shoes contrasts with the black.

Niall gets here and when I get in he surprises me by a light kiss on the cheek. "H-hey" he says nervously, regretting what he did. "Sorry." He spits out quick pulling away.

"It's fine" I say smoothly setting my hand on his shoulder comforting him. It was a strange gesture and I can't see him that way. Atleast not so soon.

My friends follow close behind. When we are there we all go right in. It's too cold to be standing around. Niall takes my coat and puts it in a closest somewhere. "Thank you" I say.

I notice Harry and Zayn across the room and I wave. When they wave back Niall lightly grasps my wrist pulling me towards the kitchen barely giving me a chance to see the wave. "Here you must be thirsty..." He says meekly. What? Why would he assume I'm thirsty....maybe because of how fast I drank everything I was given at the diner. "Thank you" I flatly say again for the second time tonight. He hands me something somewhat clear but there is a color to it.

"What is this?" I say afraid he is giving me alcohol.

"It's a lemonade mixed drink." He says trying the flatten the fact that it's alcohol.

"Niall I don't drink." I put the cup down and he just nods with an unsure smile.

"Here" he says. "It's coke" handing me a cup of fizzy dark liquid.

"Thank you Niall" I say for the third time. I don't know what to do and all I see when I look around is drunk people and then my friends standing awkwardly in the croud. Myra is sitting with Louis on the smaller couch...the love seat as they are also called...talking..I realize the tone in Myra's voice and know she is drunk. Since when does she drink? I look around for Dalton and when I come back to get Myra I finally find Dalton....on top of Louis...bashing his face in. "Dalton!!" I scream running towards them. Niall stops me and I notice Harry walking over to break them apart. Zayn takes Dalton with his wrists held behind his back. Harry picks up Louis and brings him to the bathroom. Dalton's cheeks are flushed and there is a fire in his eyes then a sudden glossyness as he looks at Myra. I run to Kailey who watched the whole thing.

"What the hell just happened?!" I scream at Kailey.

"Myra...of course being drunk off her ass...climbed on Louis's lap and started kissing him. He was trying to get her Myra off but it was too late before Dalton stepped in and threw her off" she says coldly.

I walk to Dalton. Still trying to get out of Zayns grip. "Shh..." I say putting his face between my hands "it's ok....Myra is drunk" he calms down slightly still shaking from anger. When Dalton was younger he had pills for anger. Now he doesn't need them but still has a slip when things get really bad.

"I know" he says. His hands are covered in his own and Louis's blood.

"I think you and Myra should go. Kailey too. She isn't having any fun over there" I point to Kailey who I sitting on a couch alone next to a bunch of drunk people making out.

(I know I know....this is referring to MM XD)

"Ok" he says flatly. "I'll see you later" he says before giving me a friendly hug goodbye.

Robbie is playing drinking games with some guys and I let him here knowing Niall could take us home later. When I find Niall he is shit-faced drunk. "Niall!" I whine walking away.

"Hey" I hear a male voice from behind me. I turn around to see Harry.

"Hey"

"Do you need to get home. Everyone else is drunk so I can see why your stuck here right now." He says softly. To be honest I want to stay here and I've already started drinking.

"No I'm going to hang a while longer" I smile

"Uh...ok." He says nervously.

I find Robbie. "Hey sexy" he says in a teasing tone. I know he is drunk. He pulls me over. "Hey come play with us."

He says in my ear.

Not wanting to disagree I ask what game and they are going to play beer pong. "Fine" I whine at him.

Of course we lost and I am shitfaced. I have honestly no clue what I am doing. "Hey Niall!!" I scream across the room.

"Hey"

"Thank you for bringing me here" I whisper into his ear.

Without a thought in my mind I pull on his collar and kiss him. He gasps on contact and tries to push me away. He has sobered in the three hours since I have seen him and he isn't up for games. I feel arm wrap around my waist.

"What the fuck are you doing. She is drunk and your taking advantage of her" I hear Harry snap behind me. Without thinking I answer for him.

"You would much rather like it..I-if it were you taking...taking advantage of me huh?" I slur

"No Kayla, now let's find Robbie and I can take you home." He calmly says over the loud music.

I follow him through the house till he finds and drags Robbie outside with me following him like a puppy. I really don't want to go but I really don't want to stay. It's not like me to just kiss someone so I know what state I'm at and I don't want to be around anyone drunk any more. I go home leaving behind my jacket. I really don't care. It's an old one anyway.