The Coño Boy 1 & 2: Love What You Will

Chapter Seven: Mirror, Mirror, Side-Mirror

Chime, vibrate, chime, vibrate, chime.

4:50am according to the screen display.

SNOOZE

Chime, vibrate, chime, vibrate, chime.

5:10am according to the screen display

SNOOZE

Chime, vibrate, chime, vibrate, chime

5:20 am -Bakit ba ako nag-alarm this early? I wanna go back to sleep. I hugged my pillow tighter and I sink my nose into it. And there it is...

The scent that put me to sleep.

The scent left behind because of what happened yesterday dito sa room ko.

The scent that I don't want to go away.

I take one more deep breath at parang everything flashed back na para pa rin ako nanaginip. I stayed in that state of bliss. In that moment when na alam ko something about me isn't the same as it was as yesterday. Alam niyo yung state ng utak mo na you're not yet quite awake tapos parang dinuduyan ka to go into a dream? That's what it's like. 

A few more seconds then saka ko na-realize why ang early ko nagpa-alarm. I get up from my bed and rushed na mag-pack ng backpack ko.

Thursday
P.E.
Swimming

I took a shirt from my cabinet, an extra pair of undies, saka isang light blue na bath towel.

Mali, I thought. I returned the bath towel, dapat white, I should bring white. Change. Kinuha ko yung paper bag and took out the swim trunks that Joaquin and I bought the other day sa mall and put it over the stuff na kinuha ko na sa cabinet kanina lang. I took the backpack na nakasabit sa back ng cabinet door ko and my always ready toiletry bag.

I Looked at the backpack and my P.E. stuff, and obviously, hindi kasya yung mga dadalhin ko.
I need a bigger backpack. Yun lang, I only have one backpack at yung iba puro postman's sling bag na. I thought yung canvas tote bag na lang for the P.E. stuff.

Note to self: Buy gym bag later.

Ask Joaquin if he can help me buy gym bag later? Oh crap, there he goes again, pumasok na naman siya sa isip ko.

I step into the shower. Tinimpla ko yung heat setting at ayaw ko maligo ng malamig this early. But what's the point kung more than one hour naman kami sa pool later? Pag-close ko ng eyes ko habang bumubuhos yung water sa face ko, all of a sudden yung nangyari samin kahapon ni Joaquin nag-flash na naman sa isip ko. Well, can you blame me? That scene was straight out of my wildest fantasies.

Come on, it's not everyday na someone like Joaquin asks you kung kaya mo bang gawin sa kanya yung nasa Bel Ami photo book. And please take my word for it, Joaquin is gorgeous. And di ba, he was the one who asked me? I mean, siya yung nagtanong di ba? And he knows what he wants. Siya yung nag-guide sakin, di ba

I have to admit, that was my first time. Actually, I thought about how my first time was going to be before and hindi naman ganoon yung nasa isip ko. Pero let's save that story for some other time. By now, pag di pa rin kayo bored sa part na ito ng buhay ko, I will also have to admit na I'm not as squeaky clean and harmless as I look or project. Ever since I "discovered" myself, I knew what I wanted. Well, may mga fantasies ako about what I want.

Wait, on second thought. Cold water. I need cold water for this shower.

10 minutes later...

"Calm down, Sean. It's just one sexual encounter, " I tell myself pagharap ko sa mirror to brush my teeth. Chances are, baka maging awkward na si Joaquin sayo. Paano ba naman kasi, you've only known the guy for two days, bumigay ka na.

I look at myself again in the mirror. There's really nothing special there. Just the same pale and skinny guy na kilala ko since bata pa ako. Nothing there na I see could attract anybody.

Wait, why am I even considering these thoughts before 6:00am?

I finish dressing up. Grey shorts, light blue shirt, white wristwatch, white low-cut Chucks. No point in putting product sa hair ko because mababasa rin naman uli later. It doesn't hurt na suklayin, di ba? Wow ha, Sean, conscious effort? I check my phone, 6:13 na! Damn, I have to get to the College Pool.

I get my sling bag, yung canvas bag with my P.E. stuff, and my phone and rushed out of my room. I can make it naman siguro on time, may trike naman na may university sticker passing by Xavierville. I locked the front door and got out of the gate. Lumingon ako sa far end of the street and waved at a trike na nakita ko sa malayo.

Car horn beep.

Nung malapit na yung trike, wala pala siyang university sticker. Just my luck. Maybe the next one

Car horn beeps twice.

What the fuck? Why is that sound so close to my ear?

Joaquin: Dude, why are you waving at trikes? I'm here.

And there he was, his head was peeking out of the car window to call my attention,
All this time, his car was parked right in front of the gate of my Tita's townhouse.
Sa pagmamdali ko, I never even noticed that Joaquin was there. I was directly behind his car habang nag-aabang ng trike.

Joaquin: 6:30am, di ba?

Joaquin returns to his seated position and I could see his reflection sa side mirror habang sinasara niya yung side window.