In Real Life (Nemi)

Hold Up

My name is Demi Lovato. Most people know me wherever I go, because I'm an actress & a performer & I was a judge on Xfactor for two seasons. It's annoying, but it's the life I chose. I believe I have a voice that could do good in the world, so I concentrate on that part of my fame. I just finished my biggest & most awesome tour ever, the Neon Lights Tour. My best friend, Nick Jonas, was my creative director for this tour & he did an AMAZING job. I was so proud of him. Him & I worked so well together, as well as had fun together. We'd always been close, him being the one out of all of the Jonas Brothers that I was closest, to. While we worked on this tour together, we got even closer, if that was possible. We both had significant others, so not that kind of close.

Nick has been dating a former Miss Universe & Miss USA, Olivia Culpo, for about a year now. I have been dating actor, Wilmer Valderrama, on & off for over four years now. He's an amazing guy. We've been through a lot together, he's seen me come so far & supported me every step of the way. He was my rock, my everything, my forever. Or so I thought.

I was checking myself in my full length mirror, smoothing out the wrinkles in my form fitting black jumpsuit that I was wearing to a wedding. Wilmer's good friends Ashton Kutcher & Mila Kunis were getting married today. I was excited. I hadn't been to a wedding in ages. Wilmer was picking me up soon. It was a pretty hot day in L.A. today, so I hoped I wouldn't sweat too much. I ran my hair over my hair, smoothing down a few stray hairs. I missed my pink hair, sometimes. My hair was a normal color again. I changed it back to a dark brown once my tour was over. I wasn't going to be taking a stage for a while, so I decided to go back to boring. My shaved side was starting to look normal, thankfully. I let it start growing out once the tour ended as well. It had run its course.

I grabbed my phone off the bed to put it in my purse & noticed it blinking. I must have missed a call or text while I was in the shower. I read the text from Nick with a smile on my face. "This MMA shit ain't no joke. U should come watch on set sometime. U'd be in heaven. LOL" I laughed out loud. Nick was filming a television series about mixed martial arts so it was kicking his ass. I loved MMA & he knew this. I texted back, "That would be AWESOME. Be careful, Jonas. ttyl." I put my phone in my purse & headed to my front door. As I was slipping my shoes on, I heard my phone. Nick had texted back, "You can't talk?" I responded, "No. Leaving for wedding soon." Nick answered, quickly, "Oh yea. Forgot. Have fun & give my best to the happy couple.♥ U ttyl." I grinned seeing the heart. He was the sweetest guy & I was so lucky to have him as my friend. I tapped into my phone, " ♥ U2 I'll call you tomorrow."

I heard a quiet knock on my door, then Wilmer poked his head in. His face lit up when he saw me as he opened the door wide enough to walk in. He whistled, looking me up & down. "Damn, girl. You look amazing." Wilmer gushed as he sauntered up to me, planting a kiss on my cheek, not wanting lipstick on his mouth.

"You look hot, Mi querido." I smiled, taking his hand. "I can't wait to dance with you tonight. I am so in the mood for dancing."

Wilmer laughed, heading for the door. "Me neither."

Wilmer & I made our way into the church, then he had to go find Ashton, since he was one of his groomsmen. He kissed my hand before disappearing. I took a deep breath before heading to where Mila was getting ready. I stepped into the room after knocking & hearing someone tell me to enter. Mila was the first thing I saw & she took my breath away. She smiled, broadly at me.

"Dem! You look beautiful." She said, holding out her arms toward me. "Come give me a hug." One of her bridesmaids was tying her dress, so I leaned over her dress to hug her. "I'm so glad you could come."

I scrunched up my face. "Are you kidding? I wouldn't have missed this for the world."

"Aww, thank you. I am so excited." She held her breath for a moment at the request of her bridesmaid.

"You aren't nervous?" I asked.

Mila shook her head. "Not at all. He's my best friend. I've never been so sure of something in my life." She laughed. "Funny, how you're friends with someone for so many years, then one day, you look at them & this feeling comes over you all of the sudden & it's like you see this light surrounding them, saying 'he's the one.' That's exactly what happened. Thank God, Ashton had the same feeling at about the same time as I did. That would have been excruciating if I had to wait or if he didn't feel the same way." She rolled her eyes toward the heavens for emphasis.

I couldn't help but to smile at her. Not only did she look gorgeous, but she looked incredibly happy. Would I look like this when I got married? I never thought about who I would marry, because I liked to live my life day to day & not concern myself with the future too much. Wilmer would talk about it sometimes, but it was never a serious conversation. He knew I was too young to get married & he's never had a desperate need to get married. He never really saw the point until recently.

The wedding was fun. There were so many celebrities there, it was ridiculous. I was rubbing elbows with Justin Timberlake & Jon Cryer just to name a few. I was awestruck almost the entire night. I mean Ashton was one of the biggest names in the business & he was friends with everyone. Seriously, if you weren't at this wedding, you were nobody.

A few days after the wedding, I had a free day, so I decided to visit Nick on the "Navy St." set. He wanted to hear all about the wedding of the century & I wanted to see some MMA up close & personal. When I arrived at the studio, I was directed to where Nick was. He was filming a scene, so I would have to watch from the side until he was finished.

A guard took me to a spot where I could watch. I saw Nick, his bare back to me, taking direction from someone. His body was amazing. I hadn't seen it up close like this without a shirt on since we were filming Camp Rock together. He was standing with his hands on his hips & every few seconds he would reach up to wipe at his face & I would see the muscles in his back ripple. Jesus, Nick. He was shiny, too, like he was sweating from a heavy workout. He turned around & his eyes locked on mine, forcing a huge toothy grin to take over his face. I gasped, suddenly, at the unexpected feeling that came over me. It was a warm & sensational feeling, giving me goosebumps, making my insides quiver. What the hell was this? I blinked a few times then almost choked when I looked at Nick & saw this glow around him, almost beckoning me. Oh my God, it was like what Mila described. What the fuck did this mean? What was this feeling? It was scaring me. He was my friend. My best friend. He had a girlfriend & I had a boyfriend. As Nick kept grinning at me, I felt like I was seeing my future. I saw him in a tux holding my hand, I saw him holding a baby that looked like me, I saw him holding my hand as we walked on a beach holding two children's hands. I had to look away. I couldn't. Finally, Nick went back to work & I felt like I could breathe again. I reached out for something to hold on to. I was going to pass out from this revelation. I shook my head. I was just hungry. I was probably horny & Nick just looked hot. I shivered now, thinking of my best friend naked against me. "Stop it, Demi!" I shouted in my head. I sat down on a stool & closed my eyes for a few minutes. I hoped I'd open them & Nick would be my best friend again. Not the man I was having impure thoughts about.

Slowly, I opened my eyes & found Nick. He still had the glow & I still felt funny. Jesus, Lord, help me. I did not need this complication in my life right now. I looked up to the ceiling, continuing to pray to my one & only God. I loved Nick. I knew that, but God, please don't let me be falling in love with him.