In Real Life (Nemi)

Get Back

I was probably in my closet for twenty minutes or so. I cried for almost ten, then wiped my face & threw some clothes on. When I came out, I was half expecting to see that Nick was gone, but he was there... sitting on my bed, leaning on his knees. He looked up when I walked into my bedroom & stood up, shifting on his feet, nervously.

"Demi... I... " Nick started to speak & I lifted my hand, turning my head to the ceiling.

"I still don't want to hear you say anything." I said, not looking at him & keeping my tone flat, showing him no emotion. "Let's get you home to your girl." I headed to my door & then went to my car. Only when I got to my car, did I see that Nick had followed me. I got in the car, buckled my belt, started the car & pulled out of the driveway. I didn't look at him or say a word.

Only the music, from the radio, filled the car, until Nick cleared his throat. "I know you don't want me to talk, but I have to tell you that I'm sorry." Nick's voice was quiet, full of caution.

I rolled my eyes as I watched the road, then let out an aggravated groan. "Why are you sorry? I'm the one who kissed you & I'm the one who let it happen." My tone was very snippy & I didn't care. I didn't want Nick to know that I was upset because I was hopelessly in love with him & very hurt by how he reacted this morning.

"I'm not totally blameless. I shouldn't have even called you, last night. I should have called a cab & gone home to talk to Olivia. This is my fault. Then I wouldn't have been there to tempt you."

"Don't flatter yourself. I was just horny, too, except I didn't have to be drunk to be horny." I still kept my eyes on the road as I drove.

"Fine. I'm just saying, that it's not all your fault." Nick's voice was still quiet.

I sighed, loudly. "Good to know you don't blame me, entirely."

"I don't want this to come between us as friends." I saw Nick lean forward to look at me from the corner of my eye.

"Too late." I spat at him.

"Don't say that, Demi." Nick leaned toward me a little & I couldn't help but to glance at him. "We can forget this happened. We don't have feelings for each other, so it shouldn't be that hard to get back to the way things were before we made a..."

"So help me God, do not say mistake." I warned him, turning to glare at his face as I came to stop at a red light. "Guys are such assholes. You can just hook up with a girl & forget it happened minutes later. Well girls are a little different. Sex changes things. We don't just forget it happened that quickly." I let out a growl before I started to drive again.

"Fine. Take some time, but please don't stop being my friend." Nick was pleading with me. I didn't respond. "I know you don't like Olivia, but please don't tell her what happened." Nick added a minute later.

I clicked my tongue. "Don't worry, I won't tell anyone. Promise. I knew you would want her back, anyway. You are so whipped. She's giving you an ultimatum & you're giving in. You're going to ask her to marry you. I know it. I would bet money on it." I was trying really hard not to start crying.

"I'm in love with her, Demi." Nick replied.

I let out a sarcastic laugh & looked at him, my mouth hanging open. "Oh yea, you're soooo in love with her, you fucked me hours after she dumped you."

"You should talk. You cheated on Wilmer. And you were sober."

"Wilmer & I broke up." I said, flatly.

"What? When?" Nick asked, clearly surprised.

"The week after Thanksgiving." I answered.

"Wow. Why didn't you tell me?"

"Why would I? I mean, it just happened. And you're so consumed with your own love life that you don't have time to hear about mine. "

"Whatever, Demi." Nick sighed, sitting back in his seat. "Why did you break up?" He asked, looking out the window.

"I just realized, over the last year, that I wasn't with him for the right reasons. I was with him out of some sort of obligation & not because I was madly in love with him." I shrugged my shoulders. I don't know why I was telling Nick this. He didn't respond to me, so I changed the subject. "I hope you get a prenup when you marry Olivia & for the love of God, I hope you're being safe when you have sex. She is going to trap you somehow. Mark my words."

Nick laughed, turning his face to look at me. "I didn't say I was going to propose. Maybe one day, but not anytime soon & yes she is on the Depo shot. No worries there."

"You're 22, Nick. I really hope you don't propose anytime soon." I looked at him & saw his beautiful face, smirking at me. "Promise me you will be smart & not let her rope you into marrying her before you're ready or before you really get to know the real her."

"I do know the real her, Demi. She's amazing. I love her. I do want to be with her for the rest of my life." Nick was smiling & it was making me nauseous. I pulled into Nick's driveway & parked my car in front of his door.

I swallowed the lump in my throat. "Home sweet home. Go kiss Olivia's ass." I smirked at Nick & he let out a quiet chuckle as he grabbed the door handle. Nick turned to me, his face becoming serious.

"I'm sorry about you & Wilmer. I really am. I hope you find the one you're meant to be with for the rest of your life. I hope you will find someone that makes you as happy as Olivia makes me." Nick pulled in his lips. "Bye, Dem. I'll talk to you later." He got out of the car & I watched him go to his door, blinking tears from my eyes. I found the one & that one is you. And you're in love with a woman who doesn't deserve you & doesn't love you half as much as I do. My body shook as sobs came out of it, making it difficult to drive home, but I did. I got home & spent the rest of the day in bed or curled into a ball on the couch while I watched mind numbing television shows.