I lost, but i fought 2 || J.B

Chapter 9

Month 7, i've finished my first ever single, and it's being released tomorrow, I'm super exited and so is my 10 000 000 twitter followers, which is sick that i have.

Sometimes when I walk outside people come up to me and freak out, wanting photos or autographs.

@eiramhannah: my first single tomorrow! Anyone exited? And I have to pee...

I tweet as I walk to the bathroom. You see three days ago I started peeing like crazy, like every second, not really, but you get it. So now every time I have to pee I tweet it. So now on my twitter page there is like 30? I don't know, but many tweets that consist of the words 'I have to pee'. Apparently fans and media and stuff find my life and pregnancy interesting.

My stomach is getting annoyingly big, which also causes it to be very heavy and it's very tiring.

I haven't seen Pattie this whole entire month, which I find very odd. Apparently Justin's partying has taken overhand, so maybe she's trying to help him.

The next day I'm super exited. Barely had any sleep at all.

"My single is being released!" I scream as I jump out of the bedroom 6:30 am.

"Hannah go to bed!" Christian screams from his bedroom, which is across the hall from mine.

"urgh" I groan as I turn to go back to bed.

I actually managed to sleep for two more hours before my phone ringing woke me up.

"hello?" I say groggily into the phone, sleep evident in my voice

"the single is being released in 30 minutes" Andrea says excitingly. I squeal, and sit up fast in bed. "you need to tweet for everyone to buy it, on twitter, okay?" she asks now serious.

"okay" I squeal still exited. I hang up before she get's a chance to say anything else.

@eiramhannah: 30 minutes till my new single summertime sadness! everyone get it from itunes.

I tweet. feeling all giddy inside, this has been a dream since ever. my new single is mostly about Justin, we dated during summertime and now he's my sadness.

Kiss me hard before you go

Summertime sadness

I just wanted you to know

That, baby, you're the best

the first verse is basically about how I want Justin, My summertime sadness, to kiss me before he goes. And I want him to know that he's the best.

I got my red dress on tonight

Dancing in the dark in the pale moonlight

Done my hair up real big beauty queen style

High heels off, I'm feeling alive

second verse, is about the one date me and Justin had once, I had this tight red dress on, my hair was set up and I'd used quite a lot time on my make up. we were on the meadow where me and Justin had our first date and we were dancing under the moonlight, and after a while I got tired with my heels on so i took them off. I felt so alive there with him, that's when I realized I really love this guy.

Oh, my God, I feel it in the air

Telephone wires above are sizzling like a snare

Honey, I'm on fire, I feel it everywhere

Nothing scares me anymore

third verse is about our sëx experience. the morning when I was walking to the beauty saloon, also the morning I decided to have sex with Justin. During the walk from my car to the beauty saloon telephone wires was sizzling above me. And when we had sëx I realized I'm on fire, nothing scares me anymore. I didn't fear his touch anymore, and now later I realize that when fans touch me, I don't hate it either, he helped me.

then the first verse come again, then the chorus.

I'm feelin' electric tonight

Cruising down the coast goin' 'bout 99

Got my bad baby by my heavenly side

I know if I go, I'll die happy tonight

the fourth verse, this is a deep verse, that I wrote when I was really deep down. I was driving really really fast i was thinking about driving myself to death. And I knew if I went I would die Happy that night, thinking about Justin and our time together.

then the third verse comes again, then the first and then the chorus.

Think I'll miss you forever

Like the stars miss the sun in the morning sky

Later's better than never

Even if you're gone I'm gonna drive

the fift and last different verse is about how I'll miss Justin forever. maybe once I will talk to him again, but that later is better than never. even if he's gone I'm going to have to keep going on with my life.

then the first verse comes, then the chorus and then the first verse again in the end.

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