I lost, but i fought 2 || J.B

Chapter 12

"so that's how my pregnancy went" I chuckle. looking down at my hands, the ring still on my finger, after three years I still wear it.

Three years, Three years since I spoke to Justin, I guess he moved on, apparently he's dating Selena now. and me? well I'm sitting here left in the hope that i will build up enough courage to tell him that he has two beautiful kids. Zoe, Caspar, Marcus and Alfie was also cut out of my life, I didn't talk to them in ages so I guess they stopped trying. I would've stopped too, I totally ignored them for months. Caitlin still can't stand my face, so every time I'm over there it always ends with a fight and me leaving. Christian still loves the kids, and we are still close, but he has to come to my place so no fight will start. Pattie, Sandi and Will are all wonderful grandparents, if I need help they'll happily help me, and they babysit when i need it. I still have my friends from Norway though, but they are busy with school so it's not that often we get to hang out in person. There is one person I hang out a lot with, and we always seem to get close by a phone call, that is mostly to yell at me or tell me to get my shit together. Alfredo, Justin's friend, has to be one of my best friends now, we hang out a lot, and he also takes care of my kids a lot. He called me and yelled at me, he told me how I ruined Justin, and I broke down crying on the phone, making him come visit me so I could explain. I ended up telling him everything, but he had to promise he wouldn't tell anyone.

"wow" Ellen says shocked, I just told her the story through my pregnancy, of course I never mentioned Justin, at least not by his name. "and now it's February 2015. you're soon 20 and the kids soon 3?" she asks a little unsure, i nod. "and still we have never seen a picture of your kids, how is that?" she asks.

"I just don't want them to be in magazines, or on the news or anything, I want them to be able to live a normal life" I say seriously. "and to be honest, everyone would know who the baby father is if you saw Lucas, he's a splitting image" I laugh.

"I understand" she nods. this is my first time appearing on the Ellen show since I did it when i was pregnant, so three years ago. "and you are coming out with a new album?" she asks.

"yes!" I say exited to finally talk about what really matters, the music. "young and Beautiful" I say, revealing the name of my upcoming album.

"do you think it will be as successfull as the first two ones?" she asks reffering to my other two numer one albums.

"yes, I hope so, I have put a lot of effort in it" i smile.

"well a little birdie told me that almost all the members of one direction will future on your album" she says. I laugh a little.

"well yeah, all except Niall, I feel sorry for him" I say laughing a little. "actually, I have never met him" I admit.

"well you should, he's a real darling" she says putting on a fake British accent. I giggle.

"and I've also heard that you have a song that futures 5 other celebrities" she says sharing her facts with the world.

"yeah, it futures Miley Cyrus, Demi Lovato, Cody Simpson, Austin Mahone and Louis Tomlinson" I say. "we had a blast recording it, they are all so nice people" I continue smiling.

"we can't wait to hear it" she smiles.

the interview goes on like almost all the other ones, ending with me singing a song from my latest album, not wanting to reveal anything from the new one.

"You have a photoshoot in an hour" Andrea, my manager, instructs walking next to me as we exit the building.

"where?" I ask.

"Caleb will take you" she says, Caleb is my security guard, a really nice guy. I hum in agreement so she knows i'm listening. "then studio tonight, Harry is here so you guys can record the song" she says looking up at me, I nod. she such a control freak. "and then tomorrow we're going back to Canada" she says as we stop in front of a car that we rented for me. I can't stand it when people drive me around.

"okay" i say getting in the car.

after four tiring hours of 'Hannah over here', 'Hannah be more sexy', 'Hannah smile bigger' or 'Hannah sit here' i could finally drive to my final destination of the day. realizing I'm already 30 minutes late, I drive a little over the speed limit not to keep poor Harry waiting. Andrea practically had to seduce their manager to get him over here so we could record this song in time.

"I'm so sorry I'm late, those freaking photographers are never happy" I say annoyed. Harry is sitting in the room with all the other members of one direction. that i have already met, except Niall. "hi, I'm Hannah" I say greeting him, taking out my hand for him to shake.

" 'm Niall" he says in that accent, the accent i haven't heard in six years, the accent i've tried to get out of my head so many times. he's Irish? I thought they all were English. I stare at him in shock, fear probably evident in my facial expression. I thought I was over this, I thought I was better, I thought it was forgotten, but clearly not as it's all coming back to me at this moment.

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