Is It Meant To Be?

Chapter 14

I didn’t know how to start. “If  we are going to be together, I have to tell you about my past. Cause I’m sure once we go back to school you will be questioned and told the rumors. I want you to hear the truth from me.” he nodded waiting patiently.

“Okay. Well, two years ago I dated this kid Ray. He goes to our school I’m sure you’ve heard of him. He was the one at the library… anyway, I lost my virginity to him and I got knocked up.” I felt my eyes fogging over and the warm liquid drip down my face, I was crying. Kevin just sat there listening.

“When I told Ray I was pregnant he ran around saying it wasn’t his baby and that I’m a whore. “It could have been anyone’s baby” as he used to say. That went on for about 3 months and it calmed down finally when I was 7 months pregnant. When the school  found out Ray’s buddies would shove me in the hallways calling me a whale, Ray even hoped it would die.” I choked up with just repeating it. “they did that until they got worried they would hurt the baby. Then they sent their girlfriend to harass me in the bathroom. Everywhere I went, they were there.”

I was planning on having the baby and giving it up to this family I’ve known since I was little who were looking to adopt. My mom was proud of my decision but she barely ever talked to me, even now she is distant, unless I have friends over.”I was quiet for a couple seconds preparing myself for the next part of my story, it is more emotional. Kevin understood  and squeezed my hand for support. I smiled through my tears that escaped.

“When I was about 8 months pregnant I was heading to my car to leave school early for a doctor’s appointment. There was no one in the hallway or the staircase I started descending. It was quiet and when I turned around Ray was behind me. I told him to leave me alone but he remained behind me. then he asked if I was keeping the baby. When I told him no he stood there starring at me. I told him to go away and he said I’m sorry Hailey.” The next words were the hardest to say. Kevin looked at me in the eyes and I could tell he was waiting for his excuse to beat Ray up.

“Take your time it’s okay baby I’m here.” I squeezed his hands in return to his comforting words and closed my eyes.

“The next thing I knew..the next thing I knew I was at the bottom of the stairs. Unconscious. When I came to and realized what happened I felt a sharp pain in my stomach. When I looked up I saw Ray and then he walked away and left me there alone. I tried to get up but the pain was horrible. I slid back up against the wall and looked down. There was a smear of blood on the floor.”

I let go of his hands and covered my face. I was really crying now. Kevin scooted closer and put his arms around me. we just sat there as he held me. “I’m so sorry Hailey. That shouldn’t have happened to you.” He had tears in his eyes too. “So what happened next?” he wiped the tears from under my eyes when I looked at him.

“Well lucky for me someone came by and helped me. she ran and got the nurse who called the ambulance. When I got to the hospital they told me I had to go into surgery because I was losing so much blood. after surgery they told me my baby had died. All I did was cry for the longest time. When they asked me how I fell, I lied and told them I slipped. But I know Ray pushed me”

Kevin seemed to look mad. His brow was furrowed and he was looking at the ground. “That isn’t right.” He finally said after he thought about it. “He should have paid for what he did Hails. Why did you lie?”

“I don’t know. They took me out of school for 2 weeks and I didn’t have to see Ray. I never told my mom what really happened and only my 2 best friends know the truth. Everyone else thinks I tried to kill my baby for attention and another rumor was that I stabbed my stomach.”

Kevin looked shocked. “People are so messed up.” I let out a chuckle as I stood up and walked over to the window and looked at my reflection.

“Since then I haven’t been with anyone else. I hated men after that.”

He laughed and walked over to me. “Until?” he knew what I meant. But he wanted to hear it from my mouth.

I turned and looked at him as he walked up behind me wrapping his arms around my waste. “Until you.” He kissed me on the forehead and trailed kisses till he reached my mouth. It was by far the best kiss I’ve had. It was so full of emotion and feeling. I felt so free of everything.