I wasn't sick. I didn't inherit my mom's illness but the pain of losing her was tantamount to the feeling of having the illness. Masakit ang mawalan ng mahal sa buhay. Akala ko nga prepared na ako dahil alam ko naman na mangyayari talaga but really, it didn't made any difference. Wether you're prepared for it or not, it hurts just the same.
Inaayos ko yung mga gamit ni mama. It was crucially painful to do kasi sa bawat gamit niya na hawakan ko, naaalala ko siya. I miss her. I miss the comfort that only moms could give. Si papa nagpunta muna ulit sa America and decided to travel to places para makalimot.
Wait, let me scratch that. Alam ko naman na ayaw niyang kalimutan si mama. The right word was accept. Pinili niya na mag-travel muna para matanggap niya na wala na si mama.
It was hard for us all and I tried my best to keep it together. Ethan was doing a great job too.
Habang busy ako na nagliligpit ng gamit ni mama, may nakita ako na picture ng BPH back when we were still at DA.
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Ang daming memories na bumalik sa akin just by looking at the picture. Sa pagkaka-tanda ko, hindi pa sila boyband nung time na nakuhanan ang picture na 'to.
But seeing them together like this? I knew it was always meant to be. They weren't just band mates but they were brothers. They were practically family.
I can't help but smile to myself. Nakakamiss! Right now, I wish na sana nasa DA pa din kami. Napaka-careless namin dati. Wala kaming idea na magiging ganito kami ka-successful ngayon.
We were young, dumb and free.
*FLASH BACK*
"Have you seen Joao? God! Ang gwapo talaga niya!"
"Russell is my prince charming."
"Ang gwapo talaga nilang lima."
"Haay. They look so dapper in their uniforms."
Pfft. Fan girls. It's true though. Ang gwapo naman kasi talaga nilang lima. I still can't believe that I'm dating one of them. I still can't believe that I'm dating Joao. Naka-upo lang sila dun sa may student's lounge pero ang daming girls na nakabalibot sa kanila. They were all eyeing them with interest. There's this one girl who's literally drooling. Eew.
"Beshie, bakit ka nakatayo lang d'yan? Hindi mo ba lalapitan si Joao?" Inalog-alog ako ni Sarah para makuha yung attention ko.
