Constraint >>H.S

Chapter 5

It was in the middle of the night and I was lying in bed,I couldn't sleep because of all the thoughts in my head from what happened two hours ago. Before I thought Harry was special but now I think he is both special and unique.

I maybe offended Harry by saying something but I don't know what is wrong by telling someone that they are special? Isn't that good? Maybe not...
I don't even know the guy and I am acting like I know him to the fullest and that I know what he likes to be called. I'm such an idiot.

"You're such an idiot Alli..." I sighed before closing my eyes and wrapping the blanket around me tightly. After about 20 minutes of turning around in the bed I finally fell asleep.

Harry's Pov.

I didn't mean to scream at Alli,I never mean to scream or hurt anyone. That's just how I work and people doesn't understand it because I never explain why I am acting so odd.
People look at me oddly and that's my own fault I know that but I don't want people to know. It's embarrassing,really embarrassing.

I didn't sleep at all that night. Mom had to calm me down after the small panic and anxiety attack I had when I came home. She wondered what was wrong but I didn't answer,I didn't explain.

Alli was actually a pretty girl maybe a little to close and to curious but I didn't blame her for that,she was cute. But she needs to learn about zipping her jacket properly.

"Honey shouldn't you sleep?...its 4 am" my mom asked while peaking her head I the door. I just sat in my bed looking down in my hands,shaking my head.

"Want to talk about what happened?" Her voice was soft and kind but I already told her that I was okay and nothing happened,this lady is stubborn.

"Harry I am your mother and I know when my so-"
I looked up at her with tears and shook my head roughly.

"I SAID NO! NOTHING HAPPENED! NO-THING HAPPEND-END" I screamed with tears tuning down my cheeks while hitting myself in the head and forehead with my palms.
Before I knew it my mom sat in front of me and grabbed my wrists pulling me into her arms.
I didn't like hugs and I didn't like when my mom asks me to much but right I just gave up and fell into her arms.

"I-I'm so tired M-mom. Harry is t-tired of b-being like this! I h-hate myself!" I cried out while trying to breath and talk normal without stuttering out my words,it didn't work.

"Shh...Harry don't say that,love..." my mother said while her hand rubbed over my back.
"Harry don't say you hate yourself honey...You are amazing" she whispered while slowly swinging us side to side,she knew that made me calm.

"I-I met a girl" I sobbed into her chest. She got quiet.

"Go on..." she whispered and placed a kiss on his head.

"H-her name is Alli,Ye A-Alli,a pretty name" I sobbed before continuing explaining.
"S-She is curious ab-about me but ,but I am weird and mama I-I screamed and yelled at h-her and now Harry feels- No no" I shook my head.
"I feel bad" I sobbed still shaking my head until my mom laid her hand on my cheek.

"S-She can never zip her jacket properly" my mother let out a light chuckle and shook her head.

"Harry...Don't worry about that...Why don't you meet her up and apologise? Maybe even explain the situation?" Slowly I sat up and looked at my mother shaking my head.

"N-never,no! H-harry,I mean..I will take a shower now" i sobbed and fast stood up walking towards my bathroom not even saying it giving my mother any look.

Allis POV.

Today I had a day of which I really needed after yesterday night at the park. My head was aching from all the thinking I had been up to.

Harry never wrote to me after that night and I never wrote to him,scared that I would make it worse than the situation already was.

As I sat my the dining table my phone started to buzz and light up. When I looked down on the screen my eyebrows furrowed to focus on the words.

Harry: Hey Alli,I am in the park! Can you meet me here?

A small smile curled up on my lips as I wrote back to him.

Alli:Hey Harry,sure! I am on my way (:

He didn't answer so I just decided to leave my phone on the table and go get ready.

...

The park was half empty,all I saw was some couples walking by and some kids playing by the slide,no Harry though.

I raised my eyebrows and smiled as I sat Harry placed on a swing,swing back and fort really slowly looking down on his feet scratching against the sand.

"Hey Harry" I smiled awkwardly while sitting down on the swing next to him.

"I have OCD" He said randomly. I furrowed my eyebrows at the so sudden sentence.

"You have OCD?" I asked softly tilting my head to the side.
He just nodded,not looking at me once.

"T-that's my I am..w-weird" he stuttered and sighed out. I just shook my head and smiled softly at him.

"Harry you ain't weird." Slowly his head turned to me and his eyes looked down on my jacket.

"You zipped it" he giggled softly and dropped his eyes back to the ground. I giggled along with him and nodded.

"I did...Harry you don't need to apologise after what happened yesterday,I understand that it's hard and I shouldn't have been so forward"

He had OCD and that's why he was so special in my eyes. It rang a smile to my lips now when I finally understood his situation.

"My cousin have OCD" I smiled. Fast Harry looked up on me and raised his eyebrow.

"She..I mean he?..Does?" He was so adorable.
I giggled and nodded.

"Yes he does" I confirmed still nodding,harry nodded back.

"Not only me?..." I widen my eyes and fast shook my head.

"No Harry! You're not alone about this...". My heart ached a little as I realised he thought he was alone in this,but he wasn't.

"I don't mean to h-hurt or yell" he sighed looking down on his feet.

"I know Harry,it's okay,really" i smiled,wanting to stroke his arm
But didn't.

"You know...you know..." he mumbled for himself.
"I-I just...do you like ice cream?"

And the rest of that day we just hang around the park eating all sort of ice creams. I got to know Harry more like; I can't touch him because he really don't like it and he likes to have control,I just wanted to know even more!