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Chapter 12

I could feel his hot breaths hitting against my lips. We were really close to each other now and I didn't complain about it in any way,I loved it.
Harry's hand gently squeezed my hand and his breaths got a little heavier,he was nervous and he did not know what to do.

"Harry calm down..." I whispered in a smile as I placed my hand on his cheek and stroke over his baby like skin with my thumb. Slowly he nodded and looked down on my lips,making me smile big.
A small hum along with a giggle left Harry's lips as he looked up at me.

"Have you ever kissed...someone Harry?" I don't know why I asked it but I did and it made me blush just as my question made Harry blush.
Slowly he nodded and furrowed his eyebrows.

"I-it wasn't..g-go..good though" He was stuttering even more now and it made my heart ache a little. I really didn't want Harry to feel uncomfortable and stiff around me and absolutely not in a situation like this.

"Harry you have no need to be nervous...remember?" I smiled and stroke my hand over his head as I ran my fingers through his hair.

"I-I know..but...but..Alli you're beautiful" he giggled lightly and looked down in his hands. Both my heart and cheeks flushed,I felt so honoured and happy as Harry explained his thoughts out loud.

"You're too Harry" I smiled calmly and kisses the corner of his mouth. My lips disconnect with his skin but we were still close...I could hear him breathing and I could feel him breathing. Before I could sit up properly again Harry moved towards my lips and pressed his lips against mine.

Believe me I was shocked but I loved every single second that was involved in that kiss. His lips felt cold but so so soft. A slight taste of mint made me smile wide against Harry's lips.
Our lips slowly moved in sync,nothing to dramatic but it was sweet and slow. It was perfect with other words.
Our lips disconnected and I looked into Harry's eyes.

My feelings for this man was indescribable and I didn't really know myself how I felt. I just knew I had a burning feeling in my heart when he talked and complimented me and butterflies in my stomach when I were close to him.

"That was..o-okay?" My voice were quiet yet very calm. I didn't want Harry to freak out,I wanted him to feel like it actually was okay.

"Y-yes...mhmm" he nodded looking down. I bite my lip hard,nervous he lied but that though disappeared pretty fast when he let out a faint giggle and looked up at me.
I gave him a big smile and tilted my head.

"Why you laughing,huh?" I giggled and furrowed my eyebrows. He just shook his head and looked up,meeting my eyes.
"Huh?" I chuckled in one more try to get the answer out from him.

He just shook his head and sucked on his bottom lip.
"You're stubborn aren't you?" Suddenly Harry's face expression sank and his eyes looked away from me. He dragged his hands out from mind and frowned.

"Harry?" I asked really confused about him and how he felt but I got no respond from the boy.
"Harry?" I asked again but now with a bit higher voice,yet nothing.

"I-I have to shower...bacteria..and...I have to" he said rubbing his hand and fast ran out from his room. A door opened,closed and locked. He left me sitting on the bed quiet and confused.

He seemed to like the kiss before and he was the one that kissed me but now he was in a rush to shower,I felt truly disgusting...I made Harry feel dirty.
I bite my lower lip to hold in the tears that was close to run down my cheeks but I didn't want to let that happen.

Fast I got up from his bed and made the sheets straight again to not make Harry uncomfortable. Fast I walked over to the bathroom and sobbed in.

"H-Harry I'll go now!...See you around" I didn't even let him answer before I ran down the stairs and grabbed my shoes and jacket.

"Already leaving?" Anne asked and smiled small as she tilted my head in a try to look me in the face.
"Where is Harry?" She asked and furrowed her eyebrows.

"U-uh...taking a shower..." I chuckled,trying to sound okay but I wasn't really okay. I was sad because I disgusted him and made him feel dirty.

"Oh...Did you two hug?...ki-" I looked back at Anne and smiled small.

"No...no he just...wanted to take one..I guess" I smiled and bite my lip. She just nodded and looked at me with a worried look.

"You know it's his OCD...He can't really help it..." I actually didn't know much about his OCD more than that he didn't like thins to stand in the wrong places and that he had to do things in special ways. He never talked about that he felt dirty when he touched people. That made me think of how many times he have been showering these past days when he have been holding hands and hugging.

"Don't take it personally love" she said gently rubbing my back. I gave her a faint smile and nodded small.

"Alli? Y-you le-leaving?" Both me and Anne fast looked up the stairs to see Harry standing there.

He looked truly adorable with his grey sweatpants,white t-shirt and his wet hair.

"Uh..." was all I could get out from myself,I didn't know what to say really. I didn't want to hurt him.

"I think there was a little misunderstanding here love..." Anne smiled at Harry nodding towards the towel he held onto.
His lips formed an O as he looked down on the towel and back down to me.

"I-I didn't mean anything stupid..." his cheeks were now in a very light pink colour and his eyebrows where furrowed in worry.

"Harry it's okay,I understand" I smiled.
"Now" I chuckled and shot Anne a smile which she replayed to.

"But you...Have to go?" Harry asked looking a little disappointed. I opened my mouth to talk but closed it again and gave him a smile.
I shook my head and placed down my shoes next to his again.

"No...No I won't. If you don't mind though"

"No no love! Stay as long as you want" she smiled and nodded upwards to Harry. I thanked Anne and made my way back up to Harry.

"Y-you almost left,I'm sorry" his face expression was confused yet really worried as he looked down on me. I smiled at him and shook my head.

"But I didn't,did I?" I chuckled and almost grabbed Harry's hand,but I stopped myself.

Harry must've noticed how I held my hand out and let it down because right after I let my hand fall down to my side Harry grabbed my hand and smiled small.

"It's okay" he chuckled and smiled small. I couldn't help but smile widely back to him,holding his hand tight.

He didn't think I was disgusting and it felt good,extremely good.