Constraint >>H.S

Chapter 47

The air were soft and cold against my skin as I walked out from the plane behind Harry while he dragged me out. It felt really good to be back in London after the boring 3 hours flight. All I did was sleeping and humming song lyrics to myself while Harry slept the whole flight.

Anne,Robin and Gemma took a taxi home while me and Harry took our own. I were so quiet and tired by the time that we got our bags and left to the taxis. Harry didn't say much either but he shot me some concerned looks while we sat down in the taxi.

I sighed out as the driver started to drive and I rested my head to the car window and closed my eyes. I felt extremely sick and tired and I had no idea why. I just wanted to close my eyes and sleep for the rest of the week.

Suddenly I could feel Harry's hand stroke my arm and down to my hand until he smoothly grabbed it. He leaned in closer to me and placed a kiss onto my jaw.

"Are you fine? You seem very down..." his voice broke the silence and his hand continued in my hair.

"I'm just tired...really tired" I sighed,let go of his hand and crossed my arms together,continuing to have my eyes closed.

"Are you angry? Did I do something?" I furrowed my eyebrows and looked up to him with a questioning and confused face.

"No? Harry why would I be?" I sighed and closed my eyes again but tried to open them up,that didn't end up so well.

"That is what I am asking you..."he mumbled with a sad tone. I sighed out as I felt the guilt drown over my tired and weak body. Slowly i opened up my eyes and looked into Harry's worried green once.

"Harry...I haven't been sleeping these past days and my body is acting really odd...I just feel sick okay?" His face soften up and his head lightly nodded.
"I just wa-"

"We are here" the driver said stiffly as he stopped outside my apartment.

"You're going with me right?" I smiled and chew down my lip.

"Yeah...yes of course" I paid for the ride and fast made my way out from the car and stood up on my spaghetti like legs. Harry fast came around the car and grabbed our bags.

"Come on..." He smiled and walked up to the apartment. I groaned and bite my lip. I grabbed onto his arm and stopped him.
"What's wrong?" I furrowed my eyebrows and nodded down towards the bags.

"Harry I can take them,you're in pain I can see that" I grabbed onto them and easily took them from his big hands.

"And you're tired..."he huffed and walked after me. I wasn't really in the mood for anything and I was in a very weird mood. I rolled my eyes and continued to walk up the stairs with the heavy bags in my hands.

"It would be easier if you told me what I did wrong..." Harry mumbled as he looked down and counted the stairs.
"You know...I'm sorry if I-"

"Harry!" I groaned and turned around.
"I am fucking tired okay? That's all! If you don't want to be around me now just go home! Okay?" I groaned and pushed his back down the stairs making him flinch and hold his hands over his ears.

Everything went quiet and I could see the tears in Harry's eyes grow. A lump of bad feelings and guilt grew inside of me and my legs started to shake.

"Harry I'm sorry...I don't know what is going on with me..." I shook my head and rubbed the bridge of my nose. He didn't look up to me nor did he say anything.

Fast I ran down the stairs and grabbed his bag and walked up to stand in front of him.

"Will you forgive me?..." I shook and looked up to him. He sighed out and looked down on me with wonder and confusion.

"Are you having your period or something?" He hugged and grabbed his bag and continued up to my apartment. I sighed out in relief and walked up after him.

"I don't know...I just feel like all these emotions is taking over me and I've had that feeling for quite a while now" I shook my head and opened
Up my door and let Harry and our bags in.

"And I-" I felt a weird and disgusting feeling grow in my stomach and my hand flew up to my hand. Fast I ran to the bathroom and sat down in front of the toilet and threw up.

"Honey?" Harry asked and fast walked after me. He got into the bathroom fast and sat down behind me while running my back slowly.
"Hey just....let it out..." I could tell he didn't like this and I didn't want him to feel uncomfortable to help so I just shook my head and pushed him away by my hand on his chest.

"You don't like this...it's oka-" yet again I threw up and cried out in frustration.
I flushed the toilet and breath out.

"Here" He dragged me up to my feet and I grabbed onto the sink and fast threw cold water in my face.
"Let's get you to bed and I'll get you something to drink" he kissed the side of my head and helped me into my bed.

I sighed out and Harry helped me undress from my uncomfortable clothes leaving me in only underwear.

"Here,you can take this" he opened up his back and gave me his Rolling Stones t-shirt that I happily put on.
"Okay lay down and I'll grab you a glass of water..." I nodded and laid down under my blanket as Harry disappeared out from the room.

My thoughts started to spin and I had no idea why I felt this was for these past days. I didn't want to be sick since I never get sick and when I get sick I feel really really bad.
I started to think more.
We got home from the wedding...Harry and I spent the night together the day after Harry got into hospital and I took care of him. The day after that everything was fine but the day after that everything started.

What could've caused this?
My eyes widen as I opened up my drawer. There my pills were laying and I haven't been touching them in forever...

Harry and I had unprotected sex.