Constraint >>H.S

Chapter 38

"Bab- I mean...Alli?" I heard Harry cough while carefully shaking my shoulder to wake me up properly.
I let out a sigh and rolled into his chest.

"I'm scared..." I mumbled quietly.

"Don't be...I-I'm with you...you know" He blushed and bite the top of his thumb. I smiled and sat up and looked at him.

"I am forever thankful for having you with me" I yawned and smiled to him.
"Let's get ready...are you hungry?" I stroke his warm cheek with the back of my cold hand,making him giggle.

"Yeah...not much though" he chuckled while looking into my eyes.

"Get yourself a shower and I'll go make us some breakfast...Dad and Dylan is off the the church so we will be alone. Okay?" Harry fast kissed me and nodded with a small smile.

"Harry morning breaths!" I giggled and pushed him gently away. He gasped with laughter and jumped right at me while showing me with a lot of kisses.

The feeling of Harry's lips on my skin made me shiver and I didn't want him to stop,not at all. As his lips connected with my neck,at the very sensitive area I gasped in deeply making us both stop in the very spots that we stood in. Harry's lips were still in touch with my skin and I could feel his hot and slow breaths against it,making me go crazy on the inside.

Just before Harry decided to step away from me to give me some space to breath he placed a soft kiss to the area.
I looked up at him,with my cheeks flushed and my hands in the air from the grip around his neck,slowly sinking back down to my sides.

"Go take your shower now...fool" I chuckled and pushed him backwards making him trip against the wall. He let out a very well held breath and nodded.
"The first dole outside my room,meet me in the kitchen afterwards" I winked before walking down the cold stairs.

Harry's POV;

I gotta admit,I was proud of myself so far. At the fact that I have been able to control my OCD even if I have been wanting to move around things in her room and wanting to clean my hands after touching anything in her very beautiful house. Mostly I was of course proud of being able to be here with Alli,she needed me here after the tragedy her and her family have been going through. I'd make her proud and even if her mother isn't there in the same way,I'd make sure to show her that I can take care of her daughter.

The door right in front of her room...right in front.

I grabbed the handle and fast closed the door behind me.

Wash your hands! Now! The bacteria is going inside your body very fast! Soap! A lot of soap!

My mind were screaming as I washed my hands under the cold water along with the mind smelling soap.
I breath out in relief as I turned of the water. All I needed to do today was to get ready perfectly and maybe help Alli to get ready too.
A feeling of fear and worry washed over me as I started to think through it all deeper.

What if I mess the suit up?
What if I mess flowers and decorations up?
What if I fail Alli by not making her feel comfortable as possible? She would probably leave me only 20 minutes into the funeral...maybe even 10 minutes.

I frowned loudly to myself,to annoyed by myself and my very overthinking mind.

"Harry are you okay?" I heard Allis soft voice tell from the kitchen downstairs. Her caring and very soft voice put a large smile on my face,Alli really made me happy and she really helped me to get my mind of all my very (in my opinion) annoying routines.
I loved this girl and I had the feeling that she might as well love me back but something told me that she maybe didn't...maybe she just felt bad for me and had the feeling that she had to help me.

Fucking OCD.

I grabbed my own shampoo and conditioner bottles out from my bag and placed them properly on the praise next to what I believed being Allis shampoo.
I stepped out from my boxers and stepped into the shower and under the perfect hot water.

I really couldn't help myself but to grab onto Allis shampoo bottle and to smell the absolutely amazing smell. The soft smell of roses and strawberries filled my nostrils making me shiver. God this girl made me feel so loved. Loved like never before.

Fast I washed my hair and body with my minty shampoo and fast stepped out of the shower with a towel around me. I didn't want Alli to do all the breakfast herself,I really wanted to help her today.

I grabbed a white t-shirt and my new pair of boxers and fast walked down the stairs.

"Already done? A fast shower yeah?" Alli chuckled even before I could enter the kitchen. I rolled my eyes and chuckled.

"Guess so,yes" the kitchen smelled lovely. My nostrils filled up with the smell of new made pancakes and fresh tea which my body really needed to calm down with.

I smiled huge as I saw how Alli with stress moved over the kitchen while making the pancakes and doing then table. I fast grabbed the plate from her hands making her look up to me with a bright smile.

"Let me help you...Y-you need to be r-related today"

DONT STUTTER ITS ONKY ALLI FOR GODS SAKE.

She placed a kiss to my jaw and laid her head in crotch of my neck. I laid my hand gently on the back of her neck and moved my fingers over her brown long hair.

"I have a little poem that I am going to say there...will you..stand up there with me?"

Immediately I felt how my body started to sweat and how it slowly started to shake out of anxiety and overthinking. I absolutely did not want to go up there with her in front of all the people that I did not know at all,new faces and new body languages that I had to learn on such a short amount of time.

But when I looked down to Alli and saw her scared,sad and nervous eyes I just couldn't say no. She needed me there as her own rock and I needed to be there so I could show her,Steve and Dylan that I am a good guy and I can take care of stuff even if I have my OCD in my hands.

I placed a kiss to her forehead and sighed out onto it.
"Of course...I'll be there with you" her arms hugged around my waist and her head pressed against my chest were my heart were racing externally fast.

The breakfast were perfect and it filled me in perfectly and calmed my stressed body down. We talked mostly about what people that would be there. Her aunt would be there,her three cousins: Fiona,Liam and Mia,a lot of her mothers friends and so on. She even showed me some pictures of them to make me relax and it helped.
Now it were time to get ready and get mentally ready.

Please Harry don't mess this up!

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