stars in our eyes | evan hansen x reader

12.

I can't believe that worked, you thought. But it did. Connor Murphy followed through with your request silently and sat with you and Evan at lunch. He even accepted your invitation to hang out that weekend.

Things were going better, though you knew everything needed to happen faster. You had to work on that. But for now, you were celebrating the day's triumph by dancing in your kitchen and making cookies alone. Well, you were putting Nestle cookie dough on a pan, but still, that required a full-out dance session to "Candy Store" and "The Room Where It Happens."

You stuck the cookies in the oven and picked up your phone. You skipped four songs on your music theatre playlist; none of them were quite what you wanted to listen to. You weren't exactly sure what you were looking for, until you got to "Lifeboat" from Heathers and it dawned on you.

It wasn't easy to go from listening to the Dear Evan Hansen soundtrack daily to not listening to it at all. Especially when you were reminded all day, everyday of the plot and characters.

It was weird, you thought, and kind of sad, really. No one in this world would ever be empowered by "Good for You." They'd never get to laugh during "Sincerely Me" or cry during "Words Fail". That music, those lyrics: gone. You were the only person in the world that knew they existed.

A weird feeling of duty washed over you. You ran into your bedroom and grabbed a pen and loose sheets of paper from your desk. Then you started writing.