Insane (COMPLETED)

Chapter 36

Chapter 36

LOUIS' POV

I took a deep breath in and connected eyes with Harry. He quickly looked away and continued to kiss Niall even harder. Is this actually happening right now? Niall's hand continued moving in Harry's boxers and a soon felt tears sting my eyes.

I slowly walked over to them and gently took Niall's hand out of Harry's boxers. Niall looked at me and freaked out, quickly scrambling off the bed. Fuck him, I know he saw me come in.

"Why?" I whispered, a tear falling down my cheek. "What did I ever do to you, Niall?"

"I didn't know-" he began.

"Oh, you didn't know! He didn't know!" I laughed, my attention directed to the ceiling.

"Louis," Harry began but I shut him up.

"You don't get a say in this. Just don't even start," I warned.

Harry shook his head and sat up on the bed.

"I asked you a question Niall, and if you answer with 'I don't know' i'm going to hurt you,"

"Louis, you've never done anything to me,"

"Then why are you doing this to me?" My voice is gentle compared to how I feel inside. I feel like I could explode any second now, but I refuse to. I've been angry for a good month now. I'm over it.

"Harry just came in here and-"

"Niall, you don't have to tell him anything!" Harry shouted to Niall, cutting him off, "we no longer have a relationship so i'm free to mess with whomever I want."

"I didn't mean what I said," I explained to Harry, my hands shaking uncontrollably. First Chloe, and now I don't have anyone to help me through this. I can't lose Harry, I just can't.

"Well I did. I'm done fighting with you! We're complete opposites, can't you see that? We won't last another week! We're just not meant to be,"

"Complete opposites?" I yelled, taking a step towards him, "we're practically the same person and you know that! We have so much in common that it's scary! We only started fighting after you started feeling suicidal, Harry. And that was none of our faults. I know you're scared and confused, but I can and will help you. I'm sorry I said what I did in the living room, but you know why I didn't want you coming in here. I'm just trying to fix this- fix us. And Harry, running off and being with other men while we're fighting is not the best way for me to build my trust with you. I belong with you, and you belong with me. Please."

"Why do you keep breaking up with me then wanting me back so fast? If you don't mean it, then why do you say it?"

"I only said it this time because I'm jealous, okay? Niall's slowly taking my place and I won't stand for it! You're my boyfriend, not his! I didn't want you coming in here because I knew this is what I would find! I can't fucking believe Niall was doing that to you-"

"Shut up, Louis. Don't blame Niall. I asked him to touch me,"

"He still did it, therefore, I can blame him. He knows you're mine,"

"Was," Harry corrected me, "I was yours. Not anymore."

I took in a deep breath and looked him straight in the eyes. "What happened to 'never let me go, Louis'?"

He just swallowed harshly and looked away from me. He bit the inside of his cheek and ran his hands through his hair.

"And I'm trying not to let you go," I continued, "you just have to hold on and let us figure our relationship out,"

Harry just stared at the wall in front of him and didn't say anything.

"Its okay, Harry," Niall cooed, rubbing his thigh.

"You better get your hands off of him," I warned Niall, slapping his hand, "I won't hesitate to punch you next time,"

"Whatever," he spit, getting up off his bed and leaving his room. Finally.

I walked over to Harry and sat next to him, creating some space between us.

"Louis?" He finally said, looking at me. Tears gathered in his eyes and I felt my stomach turn. He looks so sad and torn apart, and I know I did this to him. His bottom lip trembled as he held back his tears.

"Yes, Harry?"

"What do you think life will be like in a year?"

I thought for a moment. "Probably much like how it is today, why?"

Harry shook his head. "I won't last another year like this."

"You have to, Harry. I won't let you leave me."

"Why not? I should be going back to my mom's house right now to end it all,"

"You said you wouldn't kill yourself if I didn't let you go," I started, "and I didn't,"

"Why do you care about me so much?"

"That's a stupid question-"

"Just answer me!"

I was thrown off by how loud his words were but I quickly shook it off.

"Because I'm in love with you. I have never loved someone so much my whole life. Everything seems to remind me of you, lately. Every love song that comes on the radio, you're the first person that pops into my head. People say that you can only fall in love once, but that's not true. Because, every time I see you, I fall in love all over again. I just wish you could see yourself through my eyes and finally realize how special you are to me. Life is so short and I'm determined to spend every second with you. I want to help you though everything that hurts you, Harry! And for me to do that, you need to tell me what the problem is, and not just resort to wanting to die. Baby, I'm holding on and I need you to also,"

"I just need time to think, okay?"