A Voice Left Unheard(mxm)

Chapter 3

Ten years of intense therapy can change a broken kid.

Ten years of being in and out of juvenile facilities can change a kid.

Ten years can change someone no matter what happens in that time.

Ten years cannot erase scars however.

Nor can it erase mistakes and regrets.

Everytime I looked at the scar on my hand, I'm reminded of the terrifying kid I was.

I truly was a monster. There was something twisted about me back in grade school.

In the moment I was so mad that I was caught trying to kill Felix, but now I couldn't be more grateful.

If I didn't get caught at that time, I'm sure I would've ended up in prison or even been given the death sentence.

I don't regret getting caught. No. That's not what I regret.

I regret hurting him.

I regret probably ruining Felix's life.

He probably trusted no one after I tried to kill him. He probably shut himself away and now is living a lonely life thanks to me.

"Owen Rogers is it?" a girl next to me smiled.

I nodded and smiled.

"I missed last Thursday's lecture and I heard you take amazing notes, could I borrow them just for this hour? I'll give it back at the end of class."

"Sure," I handed over the notebook.

There must be some way I'd be able to find Felix and apologize.

Would I even recognize him though? It's been 10 years...I barely can even remember his looks. I was so focused on killing him I didn't even think to look what his eye color was.

Damn it Owen!

How would I even make it up to him?

I can't just apologize. I tried to kill him for crying out loud. There's nothing that could make up for that.

Well...all I need to worry about is finding him for now!

I quickly brought out my smart phone and googled his name. Nothing would probably come up but might as well try the easiest way first since it wouldn't hurt any.

"Felix...Anthony...Michaelson," I whispered out loud at my thumbs typed the name.

When the searches appeared, a Wikipedia site came up. I clicked on it and saw a picture of a man that could be Felix. He certainly looked different, but looks change in ten years, and something told me this was him.

I began to read his information and discovered he was a songwriter for a lot of famous boy bands he also was a famous writer that's written seven books and even wrote two gay romances that did well.

So he isn't shut away and trusting no one...

Interesting...so at 20 years old he's already pretty steady...even if his books don't sell, people keep fighting for him to be their songwriter. That's amazing.

The longer I looked at the picture, the more I was certain this was the guy I was looking for. His hair was more wavy and he now had dark freckles that kissed his light brown skin, but his facial structure was close. Even if it wasn't him, he had to be a relative so it would get me closer to me finding Felix.

I scrolled through more information to figure out more about his whereabouts, but read everything, just out of interest.

He's 5 foot 4. Isn't that a little short for a guy? Also his weight is pretty light for a 20-year-old too. He sounds really petite.

Openly gay.

Oh that's right. I forgot he was gay.

His boyfriend is the famous Duke Popplins?! I love Duke why haven't I heard of Felix through Duke?!

Wait no I have...Duke wrote a whole album for his boyfriend. He never came out and said Felix's name when he discussed the album though...

Anyways!

Felix currently lives in L.A. with his boyfriend and his best friend Misty Martell...Geesh Felix you're friends with all the famous people.

How the hell am I supposed to get in contact with him if he's around a bunch of famous people? There's no way I could just walk up and talk to him. He's even famous himself. No average person can walk up to a famous guy.

Think Owen think...

Maybe contact the producing company he works with!

Or someone close to him that isn't famous.

He's getting all these requests from bands he must have a manger dealing with those requests. Maybe I could get in contact with the manager.

I quickly typed in the producing companies names and with my luck, the company was having auditions that Felix would be at judging.

I couldn't sing but maybe I could apologize to him through song? It wouldn't be any good, but I wanted to show I was truly sorry, and he really seemed to love music so maybe that's how I could do it.

As soon as class was over I rushed to my dorm and quickly dialed the audition number.

"Hello this is the line to Tunson Company Auditions, are you wishing to audition?"

"Yes."

"Which date do you plan to audition?"

"On the 10th of July."

"Excellent. Keep in mind, we won't be paying for a plane ticket but we will pay for a hotel room for you. Also, this isn't a normal contest. You only get one audition and the company will decide if they want to work with you or not. Only one person will be chosen."

"That's fine," I smiled. UAs long as I can see Felix and sing to him.

"The only times available that day are 9:30am and 3:00pm."

"I can do the one at 9:30."

"Okay! I'll need you to tell me your name, email and phone number."

I told the man all my information and he quickly hung up with a, "Good luck and have a good day."

I felt my heart racing after he call.

I felt so nervous and couldn't believe I was actually doing this.

Am I actually insane?

And what the hell was I planning to sing?!

Owen you can't even sing what the hell?!

The Book of Life!

I got it!

That song always reminded my of Felix...and it portrays how I feel.

The Apology Song from The Book Of Life will be my song, and hopefully Felix will listen.

And hopefully it isn't to cheesy.