Texting / Shawn Mendes

Who is she?

I woke up feeling the light of the morning sun all over me. His eyes are still close and he seems so peaceful. I checked at the time on his phone. 9:30 and 2 new messages. Emily and Andrew.
Emily says that they should catch up soon and Andrew says that we should leave the hotel at 11.

Who is Emily? He's never talked to me about anyone called Emily. I shook him a little and his eyes opened slowly. His hazel eyes are looking at me and he placed his hand over mine which was resting on my lap.

"We should get ready." I said and got out of bed. I went to the washroom and splashed my face with cold water to wake me up. I feel tired and I have a terrible headache since last night was impossible for me to sleep. Shawn was tired from the show and he fell asleep at the beggining of the movie, shortly after we ate.

I was thinking about us. It scares me how much I care for him and how much I'm willing to sacrifice just to spend more time with him. I can feel myself changing but never in a bad way, he makes me loosen up and see every situation from a differemt perspective. I tend to see everything negatively and he always manage to find the positive in everything and his way of approaching life seems to sink in me.  I had a significant number of friends a year ago and when I realized that none of them really cared about me, I felt like everything in my life collapsed in front of me and there was nothing I could do to keep them in place. I felt like these people who held a big part in my life turned their backs to me and left me devastated and unsure about everything.

A knock on the washroom's door brought me back to reality.

"Can I come in?" His morning voice is
deeper and raspier.

Before I could even reply the door swung open. He walked in and hugged me from behind. He kissed my cheek and I immediately smiled.
He kissed my jawline and I turned around. His messy hair and morning face appeared in front of me. He's ten times more attractive in the morning. He could barely keep his eyes open and he had a cheesy smile painted on his face.

I cupped his cheeks and kissed his nose. He chuckled and hugged me. I looked up and kissed his chin. He kissed my lips. A small kiss from him brought butterflies to my stomach. I put my hands around his neck and deepened the kiss.

"Okay. We need to pack."

"I've already packed." I said.

"When?"

"Last night."

"You didn't sleep, did you?"

"Well, no but it's fine. I'll probably sleep during the flight. Hopefully."

"Why didn't you wake me up? I'd keep you company."

"You fell asleep at the beginning of the movie. I would never wake you up especially now that you need more sleep."

"I'd be fine."

"Shawn..."

"Okay... but really I'd be fine."

On our way to the airport I got a taxi by myself and I arrived before Shawn and the crew so I was waiting for them. Shawn texted me saying that he is on his way and I decided to catch up on my instagram to kill my time.

I opened the app and a picture that Shawn posted a few days ago appeared on my screen. When I scrolled down, I came across a fan page of Shawn and everyone was freaking out about his "new girlfriend". I was freaking out too thinking that those girls who saw us the day when I arrived to Paris took photos of us holding hands and that everyone knew who I was but I was so wrong...
They were talking about a girl named Emily that was in the same highschool with him and Shawn followed her on instagram a few days ago.

There were even people saying that they saw them together two days ago and that they will soon make it 'official'. What's happening?

I decided that I'll ask him later and for now I will just listen to some music.

30 mimutes later, someone sits next to me. I turn around and Shawn is smiling at me. I look back at my phone and he removes the headphones from my ears.

I look at him and he's smiling again. I'm desperetely trying to ignore him.

"Okay...what's wrong?" A serious tone on his voice.

"Nothing's wrong." My eyes never meet his but I can feel his gaze all over me. I'm tired and my head is spinning. Staying up all night was definitely a bad idea.

"Okay." And he rests his back on his seat.

Knowing that if I talk to him right now I'll probably say something that I'll regret, I stay quite.

Andrew informes us that the jet is here and I quickly grab my stuff before following the guys.

I was sleeping during the flight so me and Shawn didn't have the chance to talk. When we landed he was ignoring me and I took a taxi for our hotel. I spent the night in my room while Shawn was out with the guys. He wasn't even bothered to tell me so and I had to find out about it from Mike's instagram story.

I couldn't sleep because my thoughts kept me up all night. I feel like a weight to his shoulders and that thought breaks my heart in pieces...

Hours later and I'm still awake. I've already watched two movies but I still can't sleep. I check his instagram again. He posted a picture with a girl.
"So much fun with this girl."

It's Emily.