Texting / Shawn Mendes

The talk

Hailey finally left and as I was about to leave, Shawn came to the door and locked it. I raised my left eyebrow on him and he smiled.

"Please don't go."

"I... okay." I hesitated for a second but, I changed my mind eventually.

And I walked back to the couch were I was sitting before and he sits next to me. His long arm wraps around my shoulder and he brings me closer to him. I end up resting my head on his lap and he is now playing with my hair as we both watch a movie on the tv.

"I'm getting bored." He stated and I stand up to stretch my legs.

"Let's go for a ride with the car then." I suggested feeling bored as well. I pick my keys from the small table and I playfully shake them in front of him.

"Sounds good but, I have a different idea. I want to talk to you about some stuff as well, so let's go to the rooftop." He suggests and he takes the keys from my hand before he puts them back on the table.

I smile and he unlocked the front door. He takes the stairs and I follow behind. The sun is now setting and there are a few chairs at the corner for us to sit down.

"Look. You told me that you feel weird because me and Hailey did stuff but we didn't. The truth is that we didn't have sex as you keep saying. We are just friends that made out once. I am not willing to have sex with you Malia. You're just 17. Not that I don't want to but, for you it's a big deal. When the time comes and you feel ready just let me know. I don't want to put more pressure on you."

I nodded.
Just looking at him makes me feel uncomfortable. Talking out loud about it is so weird to me. I'm always taking everything extremely slow and I was not planning on doing anything right now. But, today when we were by ourselves on his room, I felt like I'd do it, without any hesitatin. If we were not interrupted, I don't know how far I'd have gone. My mind travels back to this moment and the way he was kissing me... with so much passion... I can't help but wonder what would have happened.

"Will you be here for my birthday?" I ask trying so hard to change the topic.

"June 7th. I don't know if I'll be here but I can promise you that we will be together."

I smiled.

*WARNING! Some really cheesy stuff will be said. If you are not into that, skip the rest of this chapter. 😂 but if you ask me just read it! The story of when Shawn told her for the first time ever that he loves her, is down there*

"I want to spend some time just me and you. I miss you so much. I miss us. To be honest, it's so weird to me because I'm so used on just giving up on people and even though I can find 100 reasons to give up on this relationship, I just hold on this one because is way stronger than the others I had." I say looking at him.

"And what is that reason?" He asked and he turned his face to my direction.

"I love you and I believe in us." I say looking at my hands which are resting on my lap.

He smiled. He stood up from his chair and took my hand in his. He unlocked his phone and slow music started playing. It is extremely low but the lyrics are crystal clear to me. Maybe because it's my favourite song and I've memorized them or maybe because every time I'm alone with him, the whole world goes on mute.

Shawn took both of my hands and placed them on his shoulders and he placed his hands on my lower back. I couldn't help myself and a few giggles left my mouth. He laughed too.
"So honey now, take me into your loving arms, kiss me under the light of a thousand stars..."
He started singing me the lyrics and my eyes started getting watery.
Can you believe that we are together for so long but he had never sang to me before?

I am staring at his lips the whole time, mesmerized by his beautiful voice. He starts slow-dancing with me and I intertwined my fingers around his neck. I rest my head on his chest as he is still singing to me. Why does it feel like a dream?

"Malia?" He says in a really low tone.

"Yeah?" My head still resting on his chest.

"Do you remember the first time I told you 'I love you'?" He asks.

I look up at him as my head is still on his chest and I smile.

"Yes. It was during tour." I say silently.

"Remind me." He says and I can listen in his voice that right now, he's smiling.

"It was when I came to see you during tour. We were in Paris and you came to my hotel room really late at night and told me that the streets are empty and that you really wanted to show me something. We walked through the empty streets and then you told me that you wanted me to close my eyes and that you would guide me. And we were walking for way too long until you said to me to open my eyes and to look up. And I did. We were underneath the aiffel tower and you said something like 'it's beautiful, right?' and I agreed and you kissed me. You told me that you've been waiting for a while to say it to me, face to face and you finally did." I said smiling at the memory.

"I thought that you will freak out and run away. Instead, you looked at me with those kind eyes of yours and smiled. It was a geniune smile. You looked down and when your eyes met mine again you said something like: 'Shawn Peter Raul Mendes. I... I love you.' Your cheeks were pink and your eyes got watery as soon as the words left your mouth."