Texting / Shawn Mendes

Visiting me

My mum keeps asking me what happened that night but I always find a new way to ignore that question. I finally found a job and I found a way to keep myself distracted.

It's currently 2 a.m. and I'm lying in bed. My thoughts of us, keep messing my mind up because I swear I've never loved anyone the way I love him. It may sound cheesy but the minutes I spend away from him, feel like ages. And even though he broke my heart and cheated on me, I actually excuse him. Maybe because I love him way too much to let him go.

My phone buzzed a couple times but I wasn't bothered. I was distracted by my thoughts and talking with anyone right now isn't something that I'm willing to do. A few minutes later, there is a knock on my window.
I groaned as I removed myself from bed and made my way to the window, where I see Shawn waving at me. What the..?

I open the window and look at him. He waves for me to go downstairs. I pick my phone and text him that it's too late and my parents will wake up if I try to unlock the front door. He texts me back saying to go to the kitchen and open the back door slowly.
I did what he said... because deep down I wanted to see him too.

As soon as I open the door, his long arms pull me in a tight hug. He's wearing black all black and he looks extremely formal.
I lock the door and take his hand in mine. We walk up the stairs slowly and when we enter my room, I lock the door. I have the feeling that he will probably sleep over and I don't want my parents to see him in my room in the morning, because that will be an awkward conversation that I'm not willing to have. He smiles at me.

I sit on the bed and he sits next to me with his back against the headboard.
He takes my hand in his and intertwines our fingers.

"You really don't know how to give someone space, do you?" I joke.
He giggles and turns his head towards me.

"I was at an event but I couldn't stop thinking about you." He says with a sad smile.

My eyes meet his and I immediately look away.

"Malia?" I turn around once again and stare at him.

"Kiss me." He simply says.

I can feel my cheeks heating up.
I try to look away but he place his hand on my cheek, slowly turning my face towards him.

"You know that this is wrong. I'm still really upset with everything... You really broke me..." I say in a sad tone.

"I know baby, I know and I'm so sorry. But please don't stay away from me." His voice cracked at the end.

"I can't kiss you Shawn." I finally reply to his question.

"You know you want to. Even when I touch you, your heart starts beating like crazy. I know you miss me as much as I miss you and I know that you need me as much as I do."
He is right, I really want him to kiss me. Fuck it.

I turned around and place my hand on his neck and connect our lips. I must have caught him off guard but he kisses me back immediately. His hands are on my hips and he picks me up and places me on his lap, not breaking the kiss. Our kiss quickly turns into a passionate one, as his hand keeps bringing me closer and closer to him. We are kissing as we haven't been together for years but the truth is that a week ago we were at the exact same position in his car.

When his lips left mine, he started kissing my jawline and he left wet kisses all over my neck. My heart is beating like crazy as I play with his hair. His hand is on the one side of my waist as he pulls me down on the bed with him on top of me.
He connects our lips once again, as our kiss is turning quickly into a passionate one, once again.
When he ends the kiss, he moves the hair away from my face and kisses my forehead. He lies down next to me and he brings me closer to him. My head is now resting on his chest as he is playing with my curles.