Texting / Shawn Mendes

Old friends?

Turning my instagram back on was probably a stupid decision. I was immediately bombarded with pictures of him, follow requests and messages. I ignored them all and I locked my phone. I took a deep breath and unlock it again. This time, because someone texted me. It was Lari. How did he even find my number?
I make my way downstairs, where my mum is watching a movie.

"How did Lari got my number?"

"I gave it to him." She says casually.

"Why? Mum, I told you I don't want anyone to have my new number."

"Lari isn't anyone. You've been friends for years." She replies.

"Yeah. He didn't even call me when I quit my job."

Lari is 19.

"Yeah, that's because he had quitted, as well."

"And how do you know?"

"Emma told me."
Emma is his mother and a really close friend to my mother.

"Fine."I replied.

I texted him back. We talked a little about wbat is going on in our lives. He said he would love to catch up with me as soon as possible. Then, he offered to come pick me up tomorrow at 5 and I said yes. I don't mind some company. These days feel like ages, I feel so lonely.

My life took an anexpected turn again and I feel like this time will make me change. I feel betrayed and I can feel myself getting angry at him. He didn't love. He was just letting out empty words to make me believe him. He did what he did just to feel better for getting into arguments with me while I was going through a harsh time. It really breaks my heart, because the feelings I had for him were real. Actually, I've never felt anything more real in my life but it turns out that it was a one-sided love.

Time pass by so easily and before I realize it, is 4:50. I sit on the floor and I put my shoes on. My mum walks in and stares at me.

"Going anywhere?" She asks with a smile across her delicated face.

"Yes. Lari will be here soon."
And she helps me stand up.

"Nice dress."

"Thanks. Shawn actually bought it for me when we were in Paris."
The words slip out of my mouth before my brain even realize it.

She smiles quitely.

"Did you call?" She asks with a worried tone.

"I did." I reply and my mood changes.

"And?"

"Turns out he never really loved me. The whole time, he was just making up to me for all the time I was on tour but we were not together. He was just trying to make himself feel better." I reply and I pick my bag from my bed.

"Did he say so, or did you realized it by yourself?"

"I realized it and I said it and he didn't even tried to change my mind."

"Honey..."

"If you are going to defend him, I don't want to listen."
She looks at me with a sad smile.

"How can you believe that he didn't love you? You may not feel like it anymore but anyone with eyes could see how deeply in love he was with you. "

"Mum, if he loved me why didn't he defend himself?"

"Think about it yourself." She replies.

I run outside. I need some air. Lari is standing outside. As soon as I close the door, he looks up from his phone and starts walking towards me.