Texting / Shawn Mendes

Visiting him

I make my way through the empty cafe and Steph is looking at me confused.

"Goodmornig?" I say but it's more like a question. Why is he looking at me like that?

"I thought you wouldn't come back?" He says as he is cleaning a table.

"Why not?" I ask confused.

"Because of the pictures of you here? They will come here and ask you questions. Don't you think it will be a better idea if you take a break from here?" He says and he walks back to the cashier.

"Are you firing me?" My heart started beating fast.

"No. I'm just concerned." He says gently.

"I can handle it." I reply in confidence even though I am not sure about it.

"So, you two broke up?" He says as he walks towards me and he rests his back on the wall.

"I... I think so. Why?" I say feeling uncomfortable.

"Because, he went to that event with that girl." He says.

"Hailey?" My heart skipped a beat.

"I believe so." He searched through his phone and then he nodded.

"Oh..." is all I manage to say before I storm in the staff room. Steph is walking behind me.

"If you broke up why are you so upset?" He asks with a smile on his face.

"Because I freaking told him to move on with her... and he did." I say and I put my bag on the table.

"Look Malia, if you love him, you need to not let him go. You will lose him forever and I can tell that's not what you want. Stop playing games with him okay? I think you took it way too far. Tell him how you feel and forget the if's. You told me you don't want to go public with him but think about it. He's a famous singer and he loves you and he wants the world to know. In addition, there are pictures of you two walking around, even though his team tried to remove them from the internet. Today, I saw a fan account full of pictures of you. I don't understant what makes you so scared. But, you need to put your fears aside and go out with him again. You did it before and you said it wasn't that scary. What's holding you back now?"

Tears are rolling down my face and Steph walks closer to me. He gives me a tight hug and he wipes the tears from my face.

"What's wrong?" He asks scanning my face.

"I... I'm scared because people will think that he goes from one girl to another and they will think that he's a player and... and I don't want this. He said it before that they are just friends but people don't believe him."

"You are the best you know that? Go and find him, girl. You're scared for his reputation? He said that they are not dating. Go and prove anyone who still thinks they have a thing, wrong. "

He walks to the small table, he picks my bag and hands it to me.

"Go."

I take it and I kiss his cheek before running to the exit. I get to my car and drive fast to his place without even knowing if he's home or not.

When I reach his door, I stop for a second. I take a deep breath and I ring the bell.

Minutes later, a very sleepy Shawn opens the door.

"Malia?" His raspy voice made me weak.

"Goodmorning." I say, feeling uncomfortable. I'm trying to keep in mind the reason I came here, otherwise I'll start running back to my car.