Bal: two different worlds

No sleep

*a few hours later Ben came in to find Mal was once again just staring at the wall in front of her, she had only managed to sleep for a short amount of time before waking back up and being unable to sleep once again*
Ben: hey
*Mal jumps a little, having been too deep in thought to notice that he had come in*
Mal: oh, hi
Ben: how much sleep did you get?
Mal: uhhh
Ben: not much then I take it
Mal: I don't know why
Ben: I know you don't
Mal: what time is it?
Ben: starting to get late, maybe 6 I think? They were really tired so I put them to bed
Mal: I want to see them
Ben: you're not well
Mal: in their mother, I want to see them
Ben: they're asleep babe
Mal: Ben!
*her warning tone took him by no surprise, he'd known he was pushing her, but he could just sense she needed to snap, he knew behind this front want anger, it was frustration and sadness, but he wasn't going to see any tears from her this time, she was using that energy to fuel herself, he watched the green flash in her eyes but he knew she was forcing it, he knew where the line was*
Ben: don't give me those eyes, you know I'm right
Mal: what if I don't care?
Ben: come on, you should try and get some more sleep
Mal: I'm not a child
Ben: I know you're not
Mal: you keep treating me like one
Ben: Mal....
Mal: you can't protect me from everything
Ben: I know
*she looks away and they remain in silence for a few moments until she finally has something to say, quietly and without eye contact though*
Mal: why did you have to be you?
Ben: what?
Mal: nothing
Ben: what does that mean?
Mal: I don't know
Ben: yes you do
Mal: if you weren't you, if I had' ever fallen for literally anyone else, this would all have been so much easier
Ben: I'm sorry
Mal: it's not your fault, but I'm not meant to be a queen, I'm probably not even meant to be a mother, or a wife for that matter, I didn't earn it, I don't deserve it, I'm just not built for this
Ben: the fact that you weren't born to be queen is what makes you such a good one, and I can't tell you that you were meant to be a wife or a mother but I can tell you that you're an amazing wife and you've been an amazing mother so far
Mal: I don't like it, I don't like trying to pretend I'm perfect, I don't like knowing my whole life is being lived for everyone to see, I hate all of it
Ben: I know yo....
Mal: ...Ben you're just repeating yourself
Ben: I don't know what else to say
Mal: how do we keep them from all this? We can't just hide them away for sixteen years
Ben: she'll never have this responsibility on her shoulders, she won't have to carry this with her
Mal: but it's still there, they'll still be following her for her entire life, for nothing and he's still gonna have the weighing down on him, maybe you were ready for all this pressure at 16 but what if he isn't?
Ben: I wasn't ready for this, you have to learn it Mal, he'll be okay, they both will
Mal: you can't know that
Ben: what happened to the girl who stood in that corridor and told me all these plans for the future, remember? The day you got your class schedule the year after I was coronated, where'd she go?
Mal: reality found her
Ben: your a half human, half fairy living in a land of fairytales, reality isn't the problem
Mal: no matter how hard we try to protect them, we can't even protect ourselves from the people who want to take away any privacy we have
Ben: I don't get why it's like this, it was nowhere near this as when I was growing up
Mal: I don't want to screw this up
Ben: Mal, these are our first kids, we are first time parents, there is no rulebook for this, we threw all common sense out of the window a long time ago, now to hell with right and wrong, we aren't gonna mess it up, we aren't gonna mess them up, you've just gotta take my word for it this time
Mal: I just want to be better than my mother was
Ben: and you will be, I have no doubt, in fact, you already are , you love them, thats more than you're mother ever did for you
Mal: I guess
Ben: come on, just try believing me, just this once maybe I'm right
Mal: you're almost always right, it's extremely frustrating and agitating
Ben: but you looovvvveeee meeeeeee
Mal: yeah why again?
Ben: that's a really good question
Mal: goofball
Ben: now sleep, dear god what is it with you? You never sleep when you actually should and then you're tired all the rest of the time
Mal: it's because you snore
Ben: no I don't
Mal: no you don't, but you could
Ben: you're special
Mal: you betcha
Ben: sleep!
Mal: only if you stay
Ben: where else would I be going?
Mal: good point
*he climbs into the bed with her and wraps his arms around her, she snuggles into his best and minutes later he can hear her soft breathing as she falls fast asleep, he kisses the top of her head gently before swiftly joining her in sleeping*

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LONGER CHAPTER CUZ IM A FAIL AND TOOK SO LONG TO GET THIS DONE FOR YOU BUT HERE IT IS SO I HOPE YOU LIKE IT, IM IN THE MIDDLE OF EXAMS ATM SO I DONT HAVE MUCH TIME BUT I WILL TRY AND POST AS OFTEN AS I CAN, ALSO, THIS BOOK IS ABOUT TO RUN TO THE POINT WHERE I CUT THEM OFF SO SHOULD I DO A THIRD BOOK? CUZ I STILL HAVE LOADSSS OF IDEAS, LET ME KNKW IF YOU WANT A BOOK 3 Xoxo