[COMPLETED] soft boy//phan (1)

Four

phil

right when the class ended i ran to dan's locker to drop off his backpack, not listening to the teachers yelling at me to stop running in the halls. i made sure no one saw me as i turned the corner to his locker, making sure i didn't look suspicious, and as i plopped down his bag i turned around fast and ran outside, running to the bike racks.

as i grabbed my bike i hopped on quickly and was gone. as i biked home which wasn't that far from school, all i could keep my mind on was dan. i don't think he saw me leave with his things and i really don't hope someone saw me with it and told dan about it. i could only hope right? no one would talk to him though because no one likes him.

when i got home i found carson at my back door, arms crossed and his brown hair in different places. "are you okay, dude?" i asked him as i  approached.

"we gotta invite that gay kid to tanner's party tomorrow." he said and picked himself off the wall, walking close to me.

"why? what the fuck happened?" i asked, beyond confused.

"the bitch was accusing me of stealing his backpack and so i had to beat his ass after school. so i want another round." he explained.

"dude, that's a jail sentence right there. he's probably already telling his parents. what the hell did you do to him anyways?!" i asked, trying to stay calm.

"i just punched him a few times, he almost passed out but i didn't punch him enough to break his nose." he said.

"dude! You're fucking insane! we're dead for good this damn time!" i said and started pulling out my hair.

"i don't fucking care anymore, phil. have the kid come or i'm telling everyone what happened at our old school." carson said and walked past me, shoving my shoulder as he left me. standing there. shocked and confused, blood rushing and feeling like i was gonna pass out.

i rushed inside my house, throwing my bags on the kitchen floors as i ran upstairs. "fuck life!" i screamed as i started tugging on my hair. 

"fuck you, dan!" i screamed and punched a wall, making it break and shatter under my knuckles; leaving cuts along the third knuckle. yes, it stung like a bitch and yes, it bled a lot.

"mother fucker." i said and held my hand as i walked into the bathroom, looking around for the first aid kit. by the time i found it there was blood all over the sink and that was going to take awhile to clean off. i cleaned it with a residue i don't remember the name of and wrapped a thick layer of gauze around it.

as i scraped off the blood from the counter I looked into the mirror, setting both hands beside the sink. I stared at myself for awhile, taking in my messy raven black hair and my eyes made of three different colors which were hooded and haunted. i was confused with myself and all i wanted was to be back, to be away from here, this school. to be away from carson.

but i can't stay away from him because he's the only friend i have and he's the only one my parents like, hell they might even like him more than they like me. but they've never seen the real carson, only i have.

i finally decided to cool down and just breathe. it was gonna be a hard decision but i know that in the end, i'm going to be the one surrendering and inviting dan over. god why the hell does that man have to be going to this school, live in the same town state and generation. why is he even existing!?

i was not going to get riled up again so i just ran downstairs and grabbed my phone from my bag and scrolling for tanner's number. when i found it i called and put the phone to my ear, hoping he would answer. and after the third ring he did.

"what's up, phil?" he asked, sounding like he was on something.  he was always in trouble, doing something wrong or bad. it was just common sense when it came to him, but then again his life was extremely fucked up.

"hey, I need some help from you." i told him and started pacing.

"spill it." he said and i could hear a bottle being put down on a table. I knew he was drinking.

"you know that dan kid correct?" i asked him and stuffed my free hand under my arm.

"that weird ass kid that dresses in girls clothes." he said and I could hear a lighter flick.

"yeah that's him."

"so why the fuck you want him there?"

"cause he started business with carson and carson wants to finish it." i explained, trying not to tell tanner too much. he was a trustworthy person but knowing that i was now involved with this. i want to tell as little as possible.

"betta not get the cops called and comin' to my house. if ya do imma whoop your ass, phil." He said and puffed out smoke.

"alright." was all i said as i hung up and threw my phone on the kitchen table. i pressed myself against the wall and slowly lowered myself and hugged my knees to my chest, wrapping my arms around them.