[COMPLETED] soft boy//phan (1)

Twenty-Eight

dan

winter break was over and it was time to go back to school, time to see tanner and carson again, time to see phil, dodie, chris, peej ad louise again. not being a douchey friend here but i wasn't in the mood to put up with their screams and humongous laughter during lunch along with the sexual innuendos and offensive jokes that made me always smile.

it has been weeks and phil has only texted me once just to see how i was doing, i told him i was doing fine and he never responded. i wanted him to pay attention to me because i was such an attention whore it wasn't even funny anymore. i fell for his acts and deep down inside my gut i knew that it was such a bad idea to befriend him but i just couldn't stop myself and now i love him and it's not fair not fair not fair no-

"daaaan!" a loud shriek came from behind me, making me flinch and swear under my breath. i turned around to see louise running towards me with chris truding behind her with his hands in his pockets.

i didn't notice it until the day that chris got the confidence to kiss me on the cheek, but he was well attractive. i quickly felt uneasy, i like phil but at the same time, maybe chris? it was so confusing and i haven't even came out to my mum either so having crushes on two guys made me squeamish.

i smiled to them both when they approached and louise engulfed me in a huge hug, "i missed you over break! how was it for you?" she asked and smiled brightly, making me smile. her smile was contagious.

"it was fine, just slow though. i had to do chores through most of it." i explained and shrugged.

chris popped up in the middle of me and louise with a smile, entwining his arms with both of ours, "c'mon royalties, or however the fuck royal people say things, and let's get to first period!" chris said in a fancy voice and skipped all three of us to class.

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the school day was very long, and don't even mention the part when me and phil got 'professor snape' so furious that i was sure he was going to suspend us both until the end of the semester. now it was just me walking home, alone. it was also starting to get terribly chilly outside and i'm sure i heard my mum complaining that it was going to snow this weekend.

my opinion, but winter is my favorite. it's an excuse to stay home from school because you could get a 'fever' or a 'cold' and you could get snowed in your house so that's another excuse to not go outside and just drink coffee and be warm and watch netflix all day while your mum can't cancel work so it's also fun having to watch her trudge through the piles of snow leading to her car.

i turned the corner to walk up the huge hill to get to my doorstep when two men were standing there. "hello?" i questioned and tapped one of them on the shoulder.

they both turned around with crooked smiles on their faces, "hey, dan. how was your day?" tanner asked and crossed his arms behind him.

"fine until you showed up. now leave." i demanded and tried to push past them both.

with their strength they pushed me back by my shoulders, "we want to know why the fuck you think you're safe now? you're stuck with me and carson until you graduate, so why think you can hide behind those kids? we can easily kill you all."

"you think that's supposed to scare me?"

tanner grabbed my arm and twisted it, making me scream and fall to the ground. stepping over my shriveled body, tanner and carson left. without looking back.

my head pounded and my body was too shaky for me to get up. the corners of my eyes were black and i was curled in a ball on my porch, rocking back and forth and cradling my arm. i wanted this all to be fucking over, i wanted my shitty normal life back, i didn't want this more shitty life with all of these people causing me to be a crying mess.

"daniel?" i perked my head up to have my eyes meet with my mum and of course, another man by her side. he awkwardly smiled at me and waved.

"daniel what happened?"

"some kids just came back and twisted my arm." i said and slowly sat up and held up my still-healing arm.

mum leaned down and grabbed my backpacks, her eyes lingering on the one with my art supplies, and she had her 'boyfriend' help me up and drag me inside. her boyfriend sat me down at the kitchen island and mum set my things down on the living room couch, making her way around everything and walking over to me.

"does it hurt?"

"no mum it's perfectly fine." i said sarcastically and rolled my eyes at her.

she went over to the freezer and grabbed a package of frozen peas, walking back over and setting it lightly on my arm, holding it there.

"henry, honey, can you please go get a pillow from the closet." mum said and pointed with her free hand to the closet somewhat down the hall.

so henry was his name. i hated it instantly, especially him. i hated that my mum was like this and bringing home a guy every single fucking night. deep down i wish she was still with dad but at the same time, he left and it was my fault and my god, i regret so much in my life.