[COMPLETED] soft boy//phan (1)

Seven

dan

when i pulled up to phil's house i was a nervous wreck, i didn't know what he wanted from me to even bring me here at all. probably to force me to help drug deal or something bad. and he must know already that i wouldn't do such a thing.

he was already standing on his porch when i got there so i didn't even have to get out, which was a relief, as he just walked up to the car, got in, and slammed the door shut.

"you okay?"i asked him.

"shut up, kid and just drive." he said and crossed his arms, turning away from me. i rolled my eyes and changed gears and drove off.

"you never told me where tanner lives." i mumbled. "i'll navigate you just please stop talking." he didn't even turn to me.

"what did i ever do wrong to you?" i asked. he didn't respond and as i looked over to him. my mind was taken away by his appearance. my stomach swallowed in my throat when my eyes traveled down his neck.. his collarbone..

"kid! watch the road!" he yelled and grabbed the wheel away from me. i was frozen in shock, i didn't know what was going on and as he pulled us over, i stayed in the same dazed position I was in before. i couldn't move, i couldn't speak, i couldn't breathe. i was having a panic attack.

phil started shaking me and i could barely hear the screaming he was yelling at me. i slowly turned and looked at him, staring into his eyes which were blue and green, like the grass and the sea, with slight specks of yellow like the sun. they were amazing.

i finally calmed down and i could hear the yelling and screaming he was throwing at me. "i'm sorry.." i said and he finally stopped. he let go of my shoulders which were now in pain from the grasping he was doing.

"you almost killed me, kid." he said and slouched back down into the seat he was sitting in. my heart started beating fast again and i started hyperventilating. i almost killed someone. i didn't even want to look at him anymore. i couldn't.

"i'm sorry.. i'm sorry.." i said and laid my head down on the steering wheel. he didn't respond, didn't reassure me of anything, didn't tell me that everything was okay. he didn't do anything besides sit in his seat and probably wait for me to get going again.

"you know what, take my car to party and i'll just was home. i don't live far from here." i told him and grabbed my oversized coat from the backseat. as i opened the door and let the cold air hit my skin, phil grabbed my arm and pulled me back inside.

"what are you doing?" i asked and he smiled at me, for the first time. it seemed to unreal. "stay with me. we can go to this party and have fun." he said. stay with me.

"but don't you have carson?"

his happy mood changed and he gritted his teeth. "i'm sure i'll see him there." he spat bitterly.

i gulped, "can you drive?" i questioned. he got out of the car and made his way around as a yes and i made my way to where he was sat before.

his cologne was still lingering around the spot and it made me feel slightly comfortable, i don't know why it just did. the rest of the ride was silent and it was overly uncomfortable as i kept myself pressed against the window as much as i could.

"i'm not scary, you don't have to do that shit." he said and got out of the car when we got there. i got out and followed him into the big, huge, scary mansion that looked like something right out of a horror movie, which was something i didn't really enjoy.

"what's up my dude!" a boy yelled when we stepped inside which was probably tanner. he passed phil some kind of alcohol beverage and he stared me up and down before laughing. "dude what the fuck is this getup." he exclaimed and ruffled the skirt i was wearing.

i swatted his hand away, "trail your hands up another man's skirt." i barked. he glared at me, then to phil, then to carson who just walked in the room and they both smiled at each other which made me want to run.

"c'mon dude's, let's get drunk and have some fun!" he yelled and wrapped his hands around mine and phil's shoulders, dragging us in the kitchen to grab some drinks.

"this is illegal and we're underage." i protested as he held a red cup to me. i looked around to all the people around grinding on each other and making out in corners. the loud music was pumping through my veins. 

"fuck off dude, loosen up." he said and forced it to my lips and made me drink the toxicated liquid. i wiped my mouth when he pulled it away before sitting and let it knock in before reaching out my hand for more.

they smiled and gave me more and more and more until i could barely stand anymore so we all sat down to play a game. i never played before called truth or dare. i didn't want to tell them i never played before because i didn't want to look like a pansy that's never left the house.

slowly, people started telling tanner that they were leaving and soon enough it was just me, tanner, carson and phil left in this house.

"truth or dare, dan." tanner asked and sipped from his cup.

"dare?" i questioned, trying not to sound suspicious. "i dare you to, at midnight, to go into the dark alley behind my house." he said and glanced secretly to carson, trying not to look suspicious, while phil just bit his lip and looked down.

i decided to just go along, "okay, whatever." i looked to my phone. 11:15. only forty-five minutes until i was going somewhere that i didn't know what was going to happen.

as time rolled on by we kept on playing and honestly, it was the koat fun i've ever had, just the four of us playing a game and no one of them making fun of the skirt i was wearing. it was the best.

eventually it was five minutes until midnight and carson and tanner left, probably to go into the alley. "what's gonna go on out there?" i asked Phil. he crossed his legs, by now we were incredibly close to touching and i was getting nervous.

"i don't even know myself." he said and I could tell he was half lying, or fully, but i trusted this boy enough to tell me the truth. he turned to me and i could see from the corner of my eye that he was inspecting my bruises.

"don't act like you don't know what happened to me." i snapped and turned my head to him.

and now i was forced to look at his face which was just.. like staring at heaven. his eyes were the prettiest things i've ever laid my eyes on. his skin looked like the smoothest thing. but god his lips..

i lost my mind as i grabbed his face, straddled his hips, and pulled his lips to mine. he lost his stability as he fell to the ground. the taste of his lips was hypnotizing, was the best thing i've tasted in my life. god i never wanted this to end.

"dan, g-get off me." phil stammered as he pushed me off his body. he wiped his lips and i was in shock with what i just did. no, I wasn't gay. no, i didn't know what my mind thought the consequences he would have done.

he glared at me and as i saw there was only one more minute for me to be here, i just stood up and headed outside. the cold air circling my mouth as i breathed into the cold air i made my way into the pitch black alley.

"tanner? carson? why do you want me out here?" i asked into the darkness.

"remember when you almost got away with something that would have gotten you in big trouble?" i heard Carson's voice from  somewhere.

"carson, that was yesterday and you already got me back for it." i said and started making my way backing away to the exit to get to my car.

"and? i'm still pretty pissed at you." he said from god knows where.

"please, just let me leave." i said and looked behind me to see if he was there.

"you're now asking for mercy?" i heard another voice. tanner. and that's when i bolted to the gate.

i would have made it if tanner's leg came from nowhere and dropped kicked me to the ground.  my head hit the ground with a loud thud and my mind started going dizzy. "let me go!" i yelled as a dark figure grabbed my collar and threw me to the ground as he and tanner started beating me countless times, it was a never ending cycle.